Giving in...

I stopped taking ibuprofen like ages ago.. Because it gives me heartburn.. and guess what ? I gave in today and decided to take it..

Why ??

Because I am having a horrible low back pain.. It started yesterday when I was packing my luggage to go home.. and it is heavy... tell u !! 20 kg already with just the stuffs that I bought for people at home..

And as usual.. try to carry it and SNAP !! hurt my back.. and cant move since...

and today the pain was 9/10.... haha.. so i took paracetamol + ibuprofen !! could not sleep last night and now having trouble with walking and stairs... obs and gynae placement starts tomorrow and hopefully i'll be better...

As promised...

The photos of my en-suite, lounge and the kitchen.. Amazing huh ???

Well, the only downside is.. the INTERNET !! It's rubbish !!!! Slow gle2... lg slow dr internet kat Malaysia.. Kalo tgh2 mlm or awal2 pg agak laju la sbb kurang org guna kot.. But luckily ade tv.. At least leh la tgk tv...

And yes.. did i say that heating stopped working couple of days ago... And will hopefully get fixed by next week sbb they need to wait for some parts to arrive.. And this involves the whole building not only my room.. but it's not too bad.. Awal2 pg je sejuk.. Other than that, it's fine...

I guess I just love this place and don't want to go back to Cardiff !!! LOL....




Till then,

LATER !!!!

Sbb internet banggang.. so, tak leh update sgt...

xxx

Love ~

Love is in the air..

Don't get me wrong.. not in love with a guy.... and not a girl either... I'm loving child health !!!!!!

Wipeeee..... Loving it every second... Alhamdulillah... 3 days into it and I can imagine myself doing this for the rest of my life... but to be fair I always enjoy my placement.... so, salu mcm bertukar2 specialty that I like.. But to be fair, I have always wanting to do paeds or obs and gynae... So, at the moment... extra stars to paeds... It might just be that child health in Rhyl is well organised and interesting...

We signed up for the gym here... I mean in Rhyl.. 35 pounds weh utk a month.. but insyaAllah will be worth it if we go to the classes as well.. So, will try and do as much... Went to the gym for about an hour-ish today... The only problem is that, it is quite far.. So, need to go with somebody yg ade kete... Krenye kalo org lain dah pegi dulu, telepas la peluang.. Like example, I finish late... tak leh la g classes sbb tak de org nak tumpangkan...

hurm... It's fine.. i'll try my best i supposed...

Ok.. tilll then... gtg... i'm in the process of making some notes on immunisation.. and the consultant ckp buat jadual immunisation tu and tampal kat kitchen and toilet... haha...

About 2 months to go before I go home !!! I mean Malaysia.. not Cardiff home..

Rhyl ~

Alhamdulillah.. Loving it to bits at the moment... It's like living in a hotel.. Didn't take photos of the en-suite bathroom and amazing kitchen and lounge.. A flat ade 4 org... so, not bad... Should have taken photos of the bathroom and kitchen.. will do that later... Till then, let's just pray that child health will be amazing !!!!!

Nala punya besaq...

Ok.. It's true I'm big... or usually known as fat...

But I'm tired of going to the gym every other day... and jogging every other day jugak.... Haish.. Still look like a pumpkin... Asal la tak mau kurus ni.... I admit that I love my food... but dah jaga makan dah... haha.. healthier living ni.... Well, maybe berat tak mau turun dah kot.. Sbb tinggal lemak2 ketegaq ja... Last year I did achieve quite a lot.. then it kinds of like plateau je.. tak mau turun dah.. maybe liposuction will help ????

Damn it... camne nak kurus before blk msia ni ??

Just another entry ~

Salam wbt...

Alhamdulillah.. done with my psych block.. It was interesting.. lots of challenges.. ups and downs.. but I did it...

And we went to cinema on Friday... to fulfill a request from a special friend who had a bad week.. We watched LIFE AS WE KNOW IT... it was funny !!! :)

And then yesterday.... I did something that I should have done ages ago.. Deleted some people on my facebook friend's list.... OMG !! I feel so bad for doing that... feels like a B***H.... But, i think it's for the best... because these people just added me because we go to the same uni... or we have been in the same school but didn't even talk to each other... and what they do is.. THEY JUDGE... how annoying is that.. like you go to the event, and people started talking about u and facebook.. HELLO.. you are a stranger.. being a friend on fb doesnt make u a friend who can judge other people and just randomly throw comments in public... that hurts man... So, i cut down the number of people on my fb... well, lets just say, I don't need strangers on my fren's list...

And last night, we had pizza night at ours.. Played wii.... and board games (rummikub and cluedo)... and people watched X-Factor which is not my cup of tea... So, was not impressed about that.. hehe...

Will be starting lecture week again next week.. 2 days of psych and 3 days of paeds.. and next Sunday, off me go to Rhyl (North Wales) for my placement... Can't wait !!!!!!!

And, did I say that strictly has started !!! COOLIESS...

Ok.. gtg now.. kind of have to cook dinner but have no idea what to eat !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Long case..

Me waiting for my consultant to present my long case and hopefully get signed off today..
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Almost ~

I have been typing all day long... not really.. but kind of.. have been trying to finish off my psychiatric long case as I will have to present it to my consultant tomorrow... and typing the outpatient consultation as well.. so, 2 cases... It's not that bad.. but i think blogging is wayyyyyy better...

Without realising, time has gone by quickly... I am now in my final week of Psych.. By tomorrow I should get all my forms signed cause it will be my last day seeing my consultant... Wednesday off.. Thurdsay to St. David's hospital for Child Psych and Friday off.. Might arrange some neuropsych stuff for Wednesday....

So, 1 block down, 4 to go... That's quick !!! Don't know what to say.. Lots of things happened and I would rather keep it to myself... Thousands of e-mails... Lots of arguments.. and frustrations... Well, that's the price you have to pay when having placement in Cardiff and Vale... And lots of travelling and money spent as well... And last week when I went to Barry, it was the worst journey ever.. the bus journey was more than an hour.. it was raining cats and dogs.. felt really sick in the bus.. but just gonna stay positive and hope everything pays of in the end....

ok.. gtg... need to read up some stuffs... it's 10.35 pm and i'm sleepy !! help me !! I should stop sleeping like a baby... 8 hours per day ??? huh... I dont need 8 hours but keep on having more than that.. :))

Raya again.. Girls get together

It's the first time we got together (The girls)...Had a great day.. Made tiramisu.. thanx to tuan rumah for nasik ayam, roti jala, bihun goreng and mcm2 lg.... And we met the freshers...

Us.. The remaining 4th years...

Batch photo ~

Cardiff medics.. but actually ramai lg..

CAU Barry

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Air ~

Duit kuar mcm air !!!!!

Serious ! Just checked my bank balance... OMG... Baru 1st OCT duit tinggal bape je.. ni belum masuk travel pegi Rhyl lg... Hurm :(

This month la sume nak kena bayar... Electricity and Gas for 3 months (Jun-Sept), TV license, and Virgin Media yg dah naik harga sbb abis contract, BMA annual fee (tak sedar kata duit dah nak kena amik... Baru sedar td)....

And the list continues.. Tak dilupakan hari2 beli tiket bas g placement.. hurm...

Owh well.... Lets just berjimat.. how ?? dgn tak pegi placement ?? :))))

Beaumaris Castle...

Gambar di atas ni gmbr Beaumaris Castle.... Amik time kat Bangor dulu.. Sebab tuka template is because blog ni dah tua and tak penah tukar ape2... hehe... sedar tak sedar... blog di dah almost 3 thn ??? hurm.. achievement !!!

Ok.. gtg.. nak study addictions.. finally esok dpt gak g clinic addiction... hurm...


p/s : I think we all have some degree of adult ADHD... Well, if u don't I know I do... :)

Looking forward ~~ :)

I am now motivated to finish up my work and work really hard for my winter break !!!!

Need to make sure that I finish all my psych notes in 2 weeks time.. And up to date with my child health notes... And get ready for OSCE in Feb for Psych and Obs and Gynae !!

Ya Allah berkatilah usaha ku.. hopefully I won't regret this desicion.. but I know it's the best...

This will be a motivation for me !! Yeay !!!!

It's because people are saying in 4th year, you need to work constantly... and finish up your notes on time... But, to be fair, ade ke org local yg blk Christmas study kat rumah ?? So, the same goes to me... What I need to do is make sure I'm up to date by Dec.. InsyaAllah I'll be fine...


So... MALAYSIA, here I come !!!!

p/s : I can feel happy tears running down my cheeks... Thank you Abah and Mama...

Makin lama dok UK... makin mengada.. makin homesick...

xxx

Anger

Warning... Ini adalah luahan perasan !

Lately ni asyik rasa nak marah je !!!! And mmg kalo geram tu, pasal hal placement... Mmg berjela2 la kalo nak cte... sempay fly blk msia, and patah blk... serius....

And as stated before, I am currently in my psych rotation... 3 weeks down and 2 weeks to go.. at 1st, I was really nervous, but then it totally changed.. Everybody was really nice... And mula2 tu geram sbb dpt placement yg merata dunia... Schedulu is like morning dekat CRI for Clinic.. Tu kena naik bas la... and then ptg dekat hospital lain for ward rounds... and this consultant of mine merata wards dia... Llandough.. whitchurch.... since I dont have a car, half of my days war wasted on buses or waiting for buses.. so, sometimes tak dpt lunch break.. And if its raining, I will be wet by the time smpai hosp... Mmg meletihkan... But 1st week tu mcm ok lg la.. sbb baru start...

But then, came week 3, I am easily annoyed and irritated.. imagine waking up early just to catch the bus, and tgk2 bus tak dtg.. tunggu bas smpai 30 min, bus tak smpai2.. smpai la lambat for clinics or ward rounds... and kalo bas lambat tu, rasa mcm nak marah je.. naik bus je terus muka merah !!! rasa nak nangis.. and geram sgt2 !!!!! Every single day i started my day with anger.. which is not good...

and then... Dah week 3, I am still terkontang-kanting for history and mental state examination... Request nak amik history tak dilayan.. patients not suitable and mcm2 lg... then, dpt la amik history form this patient kat ICU.... Terus motivation went down sbb patient tu teruk gle.. and i failed to get any information from her... So, i asked my consultant for more cases... and one extra case for my Long Case Assessment... and he said, he wants my long case to be written.. WHAT ??? setgh consultant nak case dia presented je... ni nak kena written...

And the worst thing is, my consultant suro guna history patient yg ICU tu as my long case.. I said to him, I dont have enough info.. dia kata... pegi la jumpa patient tu lg !!! and the problem is that nobody knows what's wrong with her.. seriously... So, how am I supposed to know ? I'm just a student !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish he would give me a more straight fwd case for my long case.....

And prob in the house... not helping... and homesickness.. not helping...... But somehow, air mata tak nak keluar... Salunya kalo nangis, terus rasa lega.. and apparently, that's how it is supposed to work.. my consultant said so... kena nangis baru lega... haha... tu advice dia kat patients... but then... disebabkan terlalu marah and geram, nak nangis pun tak leh.... hurm.. as if i'm on antidepressents ke ape... note that kalo amik antidepressent, air mata tak kuar... fuyooooooo


Ok2.... My aim is to be positive next 2 weeks... because dah nak abis psych.. tak nak ah placement ni jd sia2.. so, this weekend, I'll work really hard to finish up my notes and hopefully leh happy sket....

Ya Allah, please help me !

On the bright site, i have been blessed by lots of friends.... since I will be going to Rhyl for my next block, I have been offered lifts to Rhyl by a few people.. note here, i didnt ask for it... Org dtg offer !!! Fuyoo... I guess it's not that bad not having a car.. skang nak kena decide nak naik kete sapa !!! haha..

ok... need to get ready.. nak pi gym... satg jadi nala punya besaq plak kalo tak pi..

p/s : Homework for the day... decide nak blk ke tak winter ??

1st

My 1st smartphone.... Hope that I won't regret it... :)

Kecewa...

As people at home knows... I'm a TV addict.. Dok di perantauan ni, hanya internet je la pengubat rindu... leh tgk rncgn2 melayu and us kat online.... I will be the first one to know links to some series.... and website mana yg ada rancangan melayu...

And fav has always been tv3 nye website la.. cause semua bnda leh tgk kat situ... akasia.. samarinda... lestary... blk2 placement je terus bukak laptop.. and kalo mkn je mestu tgk cte online.....

HOWEVER.... skang ni agak sedih ngan geram.. since tv3 dah tukar guna tonton.com utk catch up prog, the quality has gone down.,.. sgt2... bygkan, gmbr tak clear.... and salu sangkut2.... and slow gle nak load page.... and people might be saying its your internet yg prob and ect.... TP, ni internet kat uk.. yg berjuta kali lg laju kat msia.. kalo internt kat uk pun prob, mcm mana org kat msia nak tgk..

Before this guna tv3.com.my laju gle kot... best je... and ble tgk org lain comment kata tak leh tgk sume, I had no prob at all.. Thanx to Virgin media ?? haha... But now, sgt2 sedih... blk2 placement penat2 nak tgk tv, tak leh.... tgh mlm tak leh.. bgn awal pg tak leh... APAKAH ?? Takan nak kena tgk cte mat salleh je ?? let me know !!!!

K ah.. dah lmbt.. nak kena mandi g placement... Another long day !!!! Clinic at CRI then naik bus ke whitchurch plak utk ward round !!

Yeay !!

Lately malas sgt nak update blog.. nak letak gambar byk2 pun malas... sbb rasa mcm payah plak.. nak drag2 gmbr.. then i figured something out... that actually sblm ni guna firefox... skang guna explorer... rupanya guna explorer payah sikit nak cut and paste like i used to.. dont ask me why.. maybe buta IT kot... So, installed firefox and found out that it's back to normality.. so, will continue updating this blog... just for fun... :p

Errrrr

Tried to clear my wardrobe and sent some to charity shop already... and still... can't find enough space for my clothes... keep on buying tops and blouses and trousers.. ALASAN ! sbb tak cukup utk placement.. haha.. ye la tu.. smpai tak muat almari..

Kelas Memasak..

NOT.... just been enjoying cooking lately to destress myself...

Presenting !!

Homemade meatballs !!! from scratch !! :)

Malas

Currently been diagnosed with this disease... malas gle nak update blog.. and rasa mcm makin leceh je blogspot ni... dulu straight fwd je.. ni skang mcm susah je nak letak gmbr sume... hurm...

Eid..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

Solat raya dekat CCC, makan2 anjuran Cardiff Keluarga (Postgrad) kat CCC and back to reality after that.. :)

The few undergrads.. among the postgrads....

Went to the OSCE tutorial kat UHW after the girls' open house... So, amik gambar ngan Rukhsana sbb dia pun raya..

Open house Kabi and Hafiz.. Note baju raya 2 tahun lepas.. haha..

Year 4 2010/2011

Alhamdulillah.. I'm now back in Cardiff.. 4th year already...

Just came back from a never ending psych lectures.. Yes, u heard it right.. Psych is my 1st block.. Very challenging... Haven't started placements yet.. Next Monday baru start.. ni baru intro lectures to psych... 4th year ade 5 blocks.. and lectures bahagi ikut blog.. so, dah tak sama ngan kwn2 la... krenye buat kawan baru... and lectures in smaller groups... memandangkan ade 72 swansea students yg baru joined the group and 60+ interclated, so byk jugak la org yg tak dikenali.. terpaksa la berkenalan balik and buat kwn baru..

On Wednesday, I got the timetable for my psych placement cause dpt Cardiff and Vale nye trust.. so, diaorg bg timetable time lecture la.. kalo trust lain mmg tak dpt lagi timetable.. unlucky me, I have no partner for my placement.. Keseorangan... Sebab diaorg salu susun ikut surnames kan.. so, salu jd org terakhir dlm list as I am Miss Zainol Abidin...

Kata je based kat CAV... ingatkan Heath or Llandough je.... Tp, dpt sorang2 kat Links Centre, Cardiff Royal Infirmary... Terkial2 la Monday ni cari tempat tu... and sepjg lima minggu kena travel satu Cardiff sbb sume Mental Health Institution and Hospitals mcm sekitar Cardiff.. So, tawaf la Cardiff naik bus.. ade hari kena g Whitchurch.. ade hari kena g Llandough.... Hurm... siap lecturer bgtau, ada yg lucky leh g prison !!!!!!!!

Kind of excited but nervous jugak.. sbb psych is totally different.. mcm nak amik history pun lain sgt2... but i'm loving the lectures sbb rasanya psych nye department sgt2 baik, best and bersemangat... Hurm.. and after lectures td, we said goodbye to each other.. sbb ade yg akan ke north wales.. basically we'll see each other again in 5 weeks time.. and I wont be seeing anybody other than my housemated for the next 5 weeks jugak cause placement sorang2 !!!! NIGHTMARE !

So far, puasa alhamdulillah.. but missing home LOTSSSSS.... Kurma mama bg pun tak bukak makan sbb homesick.. pegi beli kurma lain lagi.. hahaha...

Ok.. nak tdo !

First step to Summer in Malaysia is...

Shopping !!

And got this for the two little monsters.... 2nd pair is for GBP5.... Adlina dpt size 9.. Tp, utk mat arep mak cik amik size 6.. sbb yg offer tak de yg elok utk 5 or 5 1/2... Hopefully leh simpan la kan.... Kalo tak suka habaq la na.. nanti leh pi return... haha...



And sudah mula mengumpul teh.... Sandal ladies nanti saya g cari di tempat lain.. Sbb td Bridgend sgt2 busy....Byk masa lagi..

EXCITED !! Tp,tiket tak beli lagi.... :(

Really want to

Nak sgt2 update blog....

But, the internet is not allowing it... Mcm chipsmore... Plus, laptop tua ni, tak leh nak pick up connection.. Had to download one software last week utk leh guna internet.... Lg slow la.. nak guna firefox tak leh.. kena la guna explorer yg suka sgt sangkut...

Then, nak tgk itv player or ape2 online pun susah.. luckily asyik kuar je... gi jalan2... will try to update soon.. or maybe today.... ngeh....

Photos are on facebook..

It's reality...

I'll be leaving Cardiff for Bangor in 4 days time....

And thinking about it makes me sick.. really sick.. I don't know why... At first agak excited.. skang rasa mcm tak suka lak... and ble pikir nak kena pack brg.. lg rasa sakit... because i feel like i wanna bring everything.. tp, sah2 tak boleh kan....

Since weekend yg kuar result tu bank holiday, we are planning to come to cardiff that weekend... krenye after 3 weeks la ktorg blk...

Kalo abah, mesti dah suro packing dr skarang.. tp, malas la.. nak kena buat list dulu la... brg2 dapur lg... sbb Jen did her nursing in Bangor.. she said the utensils were disgusting and ktorg nak bawak sndirinye.... luckily pegi ngan kete... so, usung la satu umah...

Tak tau la.. malas !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Buwekkkkk

Akhirnya...

So sick of the word cancer... trust me.. after having to write a 6000 words essay about cancer, by the end of it.. nak muntah tgk the word cancer..

Tak penah kalah ~

Kalo bab tido... Memang tak penah kalah... :)

Serius... Sejak dah abis ni... MasyaAllah.. Tido mengalahkan baby.. Tambah2 bila subuh awal ni kan.. Bangun kul 5 utk solat... Then tido balik konon set alarm nak bgn kul 7... Lepas tu, ke laut la.... Siap pg td, because I was in deep sleep, dicampaknya handphone ke lantai sebab bunyi alarm tu bising....

Owh.. Well.. Tinggal minggu ni je nak tdo... Lg seminggu nak start SSC dah.. Kena bekerja keras balik.. Walaupun sekarang ni patutnya ada je kerja nak kena siapkan.. Oncology Project.... Deadline Friday ni... Baru terkial2 nak menulis.. 6000 words... :P

And baru td call patient untuk nak buat 6th visit and the final one... Hurm... Kali ni home visit.. selama ni asyik jumpa kat hospital je... Alhamdulillah dpt patient yg senang.. Tak byk kerenah... Moga2 tutor mark nanti bg markah elok.. Ameen...

K ah.. Nak kena minum coffee ni... Asyik menguap dr tadi..

Family vs Career ?

First and foremost, this post has nothing to do with me.. Just a random one that I have been wanting to write after a few discussions with friends...

Okay... I'm not really good at writing.. But hopefully, I can just scribble this topic in here so that one day, if I have to decide, then I know where to look for answers..

After 3rd year, we are allowed to do BSC... Ie- interclated degree... To get double degree la... Another year in med school or uni.... Worth it or not ?? Well, I don't have to decide anything because it's out of the question totally... Mmg MARA tak bagi kot... But then, I have few good friends who are having the difficulties to decide... They applied for the course and some of them got in.. But then, they couldn't decide whether to accept it or not...

I always wonder what I wanna do in the future.. Secara jujurnya... GP is amazing.. I would love to be a GP.. Tu kalo kat UK la under NHS... Sebab kalo kat msia GP private la kiranya... So, down the drain.. Unless ade org nak uruskan the business part.. Obs and Gynae... Love it... But I don't like the theatre part.. I don't like surgery... After what happened during my 4 weeks of Surgery placement, I hate Scrubs.. and Masks... But then, I still have time to think...

Ok, berbalik kepada topic awal.. My friends ada yg nak kena decide nak wat Neuroscience ke tak.. Or something else for their BSC... Or not do it at all... Sebab another year in med school... Which means another extra year before getting their 1st job, and own money and settle down... But then, what if in the future, when u are applying for jobs or specialist training and u found out that u didnt get in because ada org yg ada BSC yg dpt.. That was the main dillema..

But then, for girls, most of us will just settle down as GPs... Kalo yg family person la... Sebab more flexible... Kalo nak compare dgn jd neurologist... So, u don't need a BSC to get into GP training right ?? But another question is, how do we know, what's gonna happen in 5 years time ?? Nobody knows... Since sume tgh single mingle skang, tak de la rasa akan kawen in 5 years time... My friend asked me once, what if we stay single forever ??? So, career is gonna be our babies.. And life... And what if we decided to do something BIG... And then, u decided to start a family and then, your specialist training tergantung sebab kawen, anak sume....

So, the main issue that we have been discussing all this while is, how do we decide ?? Because, my friend said that kalo dia dah ada stable boyfriend and tau akan settle down soon, that surely she'll decide to do something lighter so that she can focus on her family.. Sebab graduate nanti umur dah 25... Kalo nak tunggu jd SPR baru nak settle down, dah tua kot... But, kalo tgh single skang and rasa2 tak akan kawen... She'll go for the specialty of her choice.. Her passion...

See.. I'm not good at writing.. But in the end... nobody knows what's gonna happen... But we have to make decisions based on our life now I supposed... Because nothing is certain.. Like for me... I don't want another year in uni.. Easy ?

Done.. Alhamdulillah...

See this picture below...


It's a tendon hammer.... Ok.. I'm not here to talk about that thing.. Tp, pasal OSCE... But the fact that my knees are in pain.. Sebabnye.. We practised OSCE's on each other and smpai lebam badan2... For reflexes... And, after being so confident about peripheral nervous system nye examination, everybody did the wrong one... HAHAHA (sedih).... Ceritanya begini...

Ada satu station ni, the patient was presented with back pain.. Please examine her thoracic and lumbar spine... And it was my 1ST station.. dah ah mengelabah.. lupa nak basuh tgn sume... So, I just did a spine examination la termasuk la cervical.. Sebab tak paham soklan.. Then, dah abis, examiner tanya, ada ape lg nak buat and any differentials ?? And last2 baru tepk, I would examine the nerves.. Fine.. and bunyi buzz... So, kuar la... Dah abis tu, lepas sembang2 dan berbincang dgn sume org yg OSCE hari ni kat hosp lain pun... Sume ckp, apparently kena examine back with the lower limb (Peripheral nerves)... What ??? Ada sorang consultant bgtau kat students time exam suro buat... so, ktorg sume tak buat.. And I'm really sure I didnt see any tendon hammer in the consultation room during my exam.. ARGH !! agak emo la... There goes one station... Maybe ada hammer dlm tu, but maybe tgh menggelabah terus tak sedar... Benci la.. Kalo dia ckp awal dekat instructions, confem dah leh wat... Saya tak suka med school !

And another station dpt examiner yg ARGH BLERGH !! Mcm mmg emo gle lepas station ni... Examiner ni kerek gle... Tanya soklan gaya kerek.. pastu ble kte present findings suka underestimate and buat gaya sume yg kte wat salah.. Sume org kena benda yg sama.. EEEEEEEEE...Tak bleh blah... (So, nanti be nice to your students)...

And another station, I ckp patient tu nye heart normal, sdgkan dia ade ASD.... I did hear the murmur... Tp, tak berani ckp sbb pulmonary stenosis... mcm tak common sgt.. So, ckp normal... hampeh !!!

Byk la drama hari ni.... Ada patient tak nak bg consent utk PR sdgkan I only have 6 minutes to do a PR examination.. Penat pujuk.... Last2 kena buat cepat2...

After all, WE ARE DONE with year 3 EXAMS... tinggal my oncology project that is due next week... And then after that BANGOR for SSC... Tp, kan, abis exam kali ni tak rasa mcm happy sgt.. Maybe I just know it's a never ending story... tgk la.. ni ada projects lagi.. Then, lepas ni byk lg EXAMS and OSCEs menunggu...

And... I'm tired of Med School... sungguh... baru examine or talk to 10 patients td pun dah letih... Bygkan kalo kena buat lg byk ??

Dear John..

Yesterday... After the exam.. I didnt know what to do.. But staying in the house just drove me crazy because i keep on checking my answers in the exam...

So, I told my BFF that I needed some distractions... Because I need to stop thinking about the past... Cewah...

And there came my friends and took me out.. 1st place...Matalan.... Nobody bought anything.. Sebab tak de baju yg menarik.. Then, we went to get food from Morrisons and later went to Sanam's flat at Cardiff Bay.... And after that ODEON !!!

We watched Dear John !!! And knowing me who is super duper sensitive... I did cry in the cinema... It was quite sad la.. But apparently, the ending in the book is a bit different...

But, dah nangis mcm baby... balik rumah terus tido.... then, bgn pagi, sakit kepala and mata bengkak.... hahahahaha......

Ok.. need to get back to revision for OSCE !!

The big E !!

Finally... I'm free from the 9 panels... Alhamdulillah.. Keputusannya ??? Tunggu 28 May nanti... haha...

Now, I just have to keep praying... Because I'm not sure how i did in the exam.... It was quite difficult.... They asked the most random stuff ever.. Like who created polio vaccine... And what kind of shot gun wound.... And some stuffs that were not even in lectures.... Takpa la.. Kalo ade rezki, insyaAllah pass....

Doa je... Now, focus plak utk OSCE.... next Wednesday... Ada 10 stations... So, akan mula pulun !!

Please don't cry !!!! You are not allowed to go through another breakdown...

Stress..

Exam is in 4 days time.. Quite a lot of people are asking how am I feeling etc... And to be honest, I keep on saying that I'm feeling fine... Alhamdulillah....

But, I was lying... Because my body didn't say so... My body has its own reactions to develop with stress... Maybe mulut ckp tak stress, but my brain knows.. Dan ditunjukkan melalui beberapa signs/symptoms...

1) Mouth ulcer... Dah lama tak kena.. Tbe2 dpt yg besar skali.. Amik ko... Mkn byk je buah.. Minum byk je air.... Tapi, tak hilang2 gak.. And kalo check kat cermin.. BESAR wei....

2 ) Dandruff... Mmg akan kuar mcm snow ble stress... Shampoo sakan pun, byk gak..

3 ) Gastric reflux.... Ie acid reflux from the stomach.. Yg ni memang horror... Mmg sejak dpt uk salu dpt reflux.. dont ask me why.. But salunye minum susu suam, jd ok.. But not this time around.. Smpai dekat 2 jam berguling atas katil.. It's central chest pain that radiates to the back.. Was thinking about dissection of aorta ke ape.. But, tak de la.. lepas 2 jam hilang... and other symptoms correlates with reflux....

4) Eating - Sume bnda nak mkn.. Tak penah kenyang..

5) Non stop talking smpai lupa nak bernafas... My fren said this... She realised that I was having a panic attack when I just couldnt stop talking.. laju lak tu...

And sume org tanya, ape perasaan nak kena g Bangor 9 minggu ?? Ntah ah.. tak de perasaan lagi skang.. Maybe akan menangis on the Sunday before nak pegi tu ??

Ok la. need to get backt to Thyroid revision...

PLEASE PRAY FOR ME...

Nasib sebuah beg...

First of all, sebuah ke ??? Bahasa pun dah tak betul..

Anyway, I bought this bag bulan Sept... Time first2 stat placement.. Usung ke GP, and then MED kat Merthyr.. Sampai la skang...

And today, last day of placement, I decided to throw it away.. Tgk la apa dah jadi ngan beg tu... Sebab beg sentiasa berat... Isi mcm2... Tp, 3 blocks pakai.. ok la tu....



Nanti SSC bawak beg plastik jela eh... Or, buy a new bag ????

Anyway, ni kuar dr topic... Tgh tgk ER... Then, baru perasan, dalam mata Elizabeth Corday ada pigmentation jugak... Sama mcm my right eyes... Adakah ini bermaksud saya akan menjadi surgeon jugak ???

:)

Finally....

Cepat kan masa berlalu ?? Sedar tak sedar.. Yesterday we had our last lecture in Year 3... Lepas exam, terus g UHW utk lecture.... Gigih betul med school saya ni... suka benor la menyusahkan student.. dari Student Union lepas exam, terus g Hospital... Takpe la.. Berkorban..

And esok last day placement... Dah abis Cardio... Cepat gle...Waktu bulan 9 dulu ingat mmg tak akan abis placement ni.. History and kejar consultant mintak signature... Then, smpai penah nangis2 sebab dpt consultant yg mcm tak nak sign.. mcm2 drama la...

Today, we had a discussion with this one consultant about some specialty yg didominasi oleh the testosterone population.. IE byk laki la... Contohnye Cardiology, Orthopaedics... Baru sedar yg tak de sorang pun Consultant pompuan Cardio kat Heath.... But, byk plak org in my year yg nak jd Cardiologist.. Pompuan la... Tp, dlm group placement ktorg mmg tak byk laki pun... ade 4 laki je out of 24... heh...

Waktu jln balik tu asyik dok pk, specialty ape je yg banyak pompuan ?? And I got the answer !! GP !!!!! Agak logik la... sebab GP nye time lagi flexible kan....

Ok la.. need to get back to work.. Still trying to revise Health in Society !!!!!!

Glucoih....

Our brain needs glucose... The organ that requires only glucose as the source of energy.. (That's the only thing that I learned in med school).. hehe...

So, memandangkan study utk exam, jadi demand for glucose pun bertambah.. selama ni otak tak bekerja.. and tbe2 kena bekerja keras... terus la kena makan banyak...

Jadi, anak dara ni pun masak sakan la.. tiap2 kali exam, mesti masak mcm2.... So, I made rice krispies 'cake' yesterday... sebab mini eggs murah lak... Plus, benda paling senang nak buat... And leh bawak g library... And teman2 yg selalu ke library skali dpt la mknan free...




And today, i made nasik lemak.... Utk bfast, lunch kat library and dinner....

Dlm bekas dah.. bekal utk lunch

Bahagia - makan nasik lemak sambil tgk F1... Malangnya Michael Schumacher dah tekuar... ceh... penat ja bgn awal....

Now, tak leh decide nak g library skang ke atau tunggu f1 abis... heh.... Because tgk F1 ni bg homesick je... hurm...

p/s : Mama jgn risau niyah gemuk... Skang ni hari2 jln g library... and time placement turun naik tangga 5 tingkat.. So, tak gemuk kot... Kalo gemuk time exam ni, lepas exam niyah pi jogging hari2... :P

Argh !!!!

Skang ni kat library.... Dah nak bengong kepala otak.. stress !! Ni tgh break la konon.. so dtg la comp room... nak nangis... kenapa perlu ade exam !!!

xxx

Sejuk....

It's 1st of April.... And last 2 weeks the whether has been amazing.. Tup2, bertukar terus...Hujan lebat and kesejukan... And semlm snow sebentar....

Ni spring ke winter ?? Sejuk gle kot.. Elok dah pack heater masuk kotak last week sebab rasa mcm semak and dah tak perlu, tgk2 sejuk balik..... Plus, last week jugak la ktorg tukar timer heater... Dah ah baru dpt bill from Swalec... Terbang 100pounds utk gas and electricity winter time... Waaaa... so, skang berkesejukan lah kami....

Hurm.. Banyak benda nak cte.. I've got signed off.. Heee.... Lagi seminggu patutnye Cardio, but we were cheeky... Sbb Dr. W (one of my consultant) kata he's not gonna be in next week, so, ktorg suro dia sign.. Padahal ade lagi 2 consultants lain... And today presented another history, so, dah cukup 4... ngeh2.. Bahagia... Kalo ikutkan, mmg tak yah g la.. Tapi, byk org said to me "You are still gonna come in right ? U are too nice not to come in.."... I'm taking that as a +ve thing..... Saya baik.. hehehe....

And baru je submit SSC choices tadi... I have >50% chances utk end up dekat Bangor... Sbb most of the choices yg tak payah transport is in Bangor... But, think about it again, banyak org akan end up kat sana.. After all, it's not gonna be that bad.. I might cry 1st sebab nak kena g 9 minggu kot.. or maybe less... But, we can go sightseeing on the weekends.. so, tak pe la...

Emotionally, sume org tgh emo... Ari ni sume ckp pasal emo masing2 before teaching... Dah ah 7 org ja dtg.. out of 24... So, ade sorang laki je.. Kesian dia kena layan kerenah pompuan2 yang emo.... And dia mesti akan tanya, is it the time of the month ?? Ces.... Susah ckp ngan budak medic ni.. tak de explanation lain...

Ok la... nak solat Asar... SEJUK... nak g amik wuduk un takut... heh...
xxxx

Up and downss...

See the picture above ?? That's how my life now... Up and down.. Then up... and later down, down and doowwwnnnn.... Tersungkur terus....

Well, obvious reason, EXAM is coming.. And other issues that can't be stated her... Due to confidentiality... haha...

Em... Plus, i'm not that strong either and some people thought that I am a strong girl.. So, they came to me for some support and start crying.. Buckets of tears.. Ari ni je 2 org.. Haish.. Muka saya ni muka tempat tadah air mata ke dik ?? Dah la kte pun stress, lepas org lain stress and nangis, trus diri sendiri cuak skali...

Hurm... I really2 need the extra strength and support.. Last year we had 3 weeks off prior to exam.. Now, we still have placement.. And 4 histories nak kena present.. and terkejar2 cari consultant nak present history and mintak sign...

And cooking to do... Baru perasan dah tak de stock makanan dlm freezer... So, berjalan kaki ke kedai halal mencari ayam... then, masak mcm nak buat kenduri.. mula2 kurma, then cottage pie again, then asam pedas.. Next plan, nasik lemak sambal ikan bilis... nyum2... weekend ni kot....

K la.. need to get back to work.. Still revising immunology... 5 lectures to go.. Then, nak tukar subejct plak.. dah penat....

My April...

It's end of March.... And April is coming..

And exam month it is... Got my OSCE (Clinical skill exam la lebih kurang) rotation today... So, I got my timetable sorted...

7 April : Essay Under Exam Condition 9.00am
19 April : Paper C 9.00 am
22 April : Paper D 9.00am
28 April : OSCE, Princess of Wales Hospital, Bridgend.. 2.00 pm

Sgt2 happy dpt OSCE 1st day, sebab cepat sket merdeka... and I love that hospital toooooo... So, gembira la jugak... :)

Now, I'm on Cardiology.. Since dah buat revision Cardio untuk exam, this block seems easier than I expected... And we got a super duper nice team... And during today's teaching my consultant said, "You guys won't be a GP, by the end of this block, you'll guys will want to be a Cardiologist. "... Wicked !!!

Ok.. got to go... I'm revising Alimentary or Gastro ni... Wish me all the best....

Mama and abah, doakan eh...

Salam sayang...

Halal toothbrush

This is another funny story that I have been dying to tell... It happened a long2 time ago..

Lizzie came for some revision in January.. and she stayed till midnight and decided to stay... And she asked me if I have a spare toothbrush... And thanx to Abah yang bawak time dia dtg aritu, so ade la beberapa simpan buat spare...

H : Yes.. I do have spare toothbrush.. (Knowing me yang ckp byk.. So, bgtau la asal usul toothbrush tu).. My dad brought this last year with him.. And I bought some as well last summer...

L : Owh.. is it Halal toothbrush then ??

H : ?? What ??

L : Because its from Malaysia... Everything in Malaysia is Halal right ?? (Because i did say McD halal, KFC halal.. and sume la halal)..

H : Hahahaha... It's just a toothbrush.... Doesnt need to be halal....

Heee... Comel la kawan2 saya...

And cerita halal num 2

Jen was having CRAB for dinner....

J : Do u want some crab Husniyah?
L : Is it halal ???
H : Seafood is fine.. doesnt need to be halal... Only meat... Depends on how u slaughter it...

And Anna asked me the same thing yesterday.. About seafood halal ke tak...

Haish... Dah byk kwn2 saya belajar... And terlebih pandai plak....

Kelas Bahasa....

After a long day (revising).. I think I need to write something to cheer myself up...

I have been teaching some of my friends Malay langguage lately... My regular students are Lizzie, Jen, Katie and Sanam....

Scene 1 : Meal at Nandos
L : What is chicken in Malay ?
H : AYAM
L : IAMS (ade cat food nye brand)
H : Nope.. AAAAYAM !!

Scene 2 : We went to Nandos for free chicken..
L : Free ayam...
H : Nope.. AYAM PERCUMA
J : Ayam tumor ?
H : (Geleng kepala)... PERCUMA

Scene 3 : In the kitchen...
L : You should teach us more
H : Ok.. MATA = eyes
L : Merthyr ??
H : MA TA And PIPI for cheeks...
L : PIPIs for two...
H : No... you dont put s for plural... Just double it.. MATA-MATA
L : Owh cool.. PIPI means 2 cheeks... and PI is one right ??
H : (Terlebih pandai la plak budak2 ni...) No, PIPI is for one...

Scene 4 : In the lounge...
H : Ok guys.. Say this... Husniyah cantik
L+K+J : Husniyah cantik !!
H : Thank you.... :)
J : What does that mean ?
H : Husniyah is preety !!! ngeh2...

And they started using the word cantik excessively now...

And yesterday.. went out for a meal at LILO's... I had chicken burger

L : We had ayam not percuma...
H : (Hurm.. macam mana nak translate eh ?? ) Ayam tak percuma ? Or ayam kena bayar ? or ayam kena beli ??

They said the next time they see my family, they are gonna say Husniyah cantik to mama to make mama happy.... hahahahaha....

Ok.. back to revision.. Seconday Hypertension... Wohhhooooo

Cardiology

I'm currently on placement at UHW... Doing Cardiology... Not my fav subject I would say, but I'm trying really hard to learn everything as exam is in 4 weeks time...

Under a lot of stress sbb byk lg benda nak kena cover... And ble kat placement, sume org tak akan berenti ckp pasal revision.. menambahkan stress....

Berkampung kat library ble ada masa lapang sbb nak kena study... Ntah ah.. Rasa nak tulis tp, tak de mood lak...

Okie dokie.. Doakan kami di sini...

Bye...

:)

Smile
tho'
your heart is aching,
Smile

Even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,
If you
Smile through your fear and sorrow,

Smile and maybe tomorrow

You'll see the sun come shining through- For you.
Light up your face with gladness,
Hide ev'ry trace of sadness,
Altho' a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

Happy BuNnY

What have I been up to today ???

Heeee..... Untuk menghilangkan stress, selain pegi jogging selang sehari, saya juga memasak untuk menambahkan kembali lemak2 yang telah hilang...

So, saya telah pun membuat kek batik... ni untuk di bawak ke rumah Kak Rus dan rakan2... Pastu, teringin nak muffin gak... So, I made white choc and strawberry muffins... But I used wheat free flour sebab ade sorang kwn ktorg ni ala2 coeliac... So, aritu dah beli wheat free flour... And nak kena abiskan sebab mengambil ruang yg byk di dalam almari... Texture muffin tu is a bit different... but still looks alright... And tak manis sgt sbb strawberry tu agak masam.... hehe... But, all in all agak best la...









And next project : Choc Chip Muffins...

Last year, ktorg giler buat cakes, brownies and cookies... But this year muffins lak.. Last week baru je wat blueberry muffins... hehehe....

Why do you want to be a doctor ??

2 more days to finish Respiratory....

And after that Cardio.. Cepatnye masa berlalu... lagi 4 weeks dah abis kesemua 3 block utk 3rd year... Cepat kan ???

And rasa mcm satu hapa pun tak tau lagi.... haish... geleng kepala....

And this year, sudah beberapa kali duduk termenung and terpk pasal kenapa amik medic eh ?? haha... tell u what !! everybody had the same feeling... but deep inside we know that we really2 want to be a doctor...

And since i'm doing Resp now, I said to people that I like resp.. Might be a chest physician one day... And Lauren said... U like everything Husniyah... !!! Pegi urology suke urology... Pegi GP suka GP... Sume benda la nak buat... haha...

And, I got a new name.... HUS.... Haish... Tbe2 je consultant panggil Hus.. Then Adrian stat panggil Hus... Dari Husniyah, jadi Niyah kat rumah.. jadi Yah kat MRSM and KMB and now Hus....

Went jogging again today... Setakat ni pegi jogging selang sehari... Sebab weather best... Dari tak fit, terus jd fit... Tp, still gemuk la... Tu tak leh nak ubah dah... Since ade lecture last year belajar pasal set point... I think my body has reached its set point.. So, mmg tak akan turun dah berat... haha... Unless mmg tak makan langsung and jadi anorexic...

Ok2... It's 12.20 am.. Dah start ngarut... Need to go to bed.... Esok nak g Velindre Hospital jumpa my patient... and my aim is to walk there.... based on google map, 45 minutes kot kalo jalan... Tp, sebab tak de change nak amik bus, so, jalan la kot... plus nak jimat duit... Lagipun appointment kul 10.45... So, sempat je kalo kuar umah kul 9.45....

Ta ~

Gemoook....

I hate exams fever... I mean stress.....

Since I have started revision.. and still busy with my oncology project.. I have been eating a lot as well... Not a lot yg melampau.. Tp, dah stat masak mcm2... Contohnye, semalam masak kuey teow goreng.... And dah mula terasa nak buat sagu....

Now still sempat g jogging.. Tp, tak tau la ble dah busy melampau.. confem tak jogging... haish....

Gemok la rasa.. tak suka !!

CVR and Musculoskeletal

Essay under exam condition will be held on the 7th of April.. Less than 2 weeks before the BIG exam...

And the two panels that I got for that exam are CVR and Musculoskeletal.... Basically, each student will be allocated 2 panels, and on the exam day, only one question will be asked... Not sure from which panel.. Tunggu hari exam baru tau... And we have to write an essay to answer that question.. Basically, kena study sume benda and on that day it's either you know or you dont....

CVR is the biggest panel in Year 3.. I cant belive that I got CVR... But, to be fair, still kena revise utk exam gak.. Year 3 Final exam lagi 43 days je.. So, revise 2 in 1 la... (Actually wasnt thinking about the 2 in 1 until Mr. A, who I have been getting a lift from to Llandough said that)....

Next week will be our last week in Llandough.... Hurm... Until today, I have got lifts from 7 different people... Lauren, Naomi, Kim, TJ, Adrian, Sanam and Charlotte.... Gle la... Siap leh compare lg sape paling best and sapa tak best... Tp, agak bias la... So, tak nak bgtau jawapan eventho Adrian suro jawab gak...

Ok la.. Agak random la update ni....

Mama.. This is for u !!!

Went out today.. With Lizzie.. Sapa lagi kan.. Just for fun... And we did go jogging this morning as well... at Roath Park.. Jauh tu....

This is for you mama !!!!!

I got a new small handbag for mama... Because mama kata dia nak beg baru untuk kuar pi kenduri kawen etc... So, I think this is a nice bag.. And i felt in love with the bag the first time i saw it.. I hope mama will love this... And if not, I'll keep it for myself... It's from TK MAXX.. tak la mahal sgt...

Enjoy the pics.... Sebab time ni tak pakai tudung... So, lizzie jd model.. Dont ask me why she had the sunglasses on...

Keciwa...

An hour ago I was a happy bunny...

But not anymore...

Because I just realised how stupid I was....

I wasnt myself..

I should have done it better than that...

I know I can do it...

Yes... this is another placement story... I got a partner who just doesnt wanna go to the unit to do extra stuffs... And because of that, I stopped myself from going as well...

And until this second I realised that it was a stupid thing to do... Because I missed quite a lot of stuff...

Revision

Heyaaa.... I'm in the library at Llandough hospital... Doing revision...

Basically, we are supposed to be with our poisons team on Thursday afternoon... But the SHO said he's too busy because he has 3 first years with him... Which is t0tally fine.. We asked for patients with signs so that we can go and do examinations.... but he said none...

So, we decided to go to the library and do work.... And I checked my results.. The data interpretation exam result... Alhamdulillah... And that gives me a boost.. Besides great teaching from my CF consultant this morning...

During teaching, I did more respiratory examination.... He said mine is quite good... lega.... sebab last week mcm stressed out gle pasal examination...

K ah.... got to go.. Tgh revise utk exam... making some notes for pneumonia....

Haaahhhhchooooo ~

Presenting complaint - Sneezing and running nose...

That's me... Got upper respiratory tract infection (URTI) sine last Thursday.. And apparently people said that you will definitely catch one when you are doing respiratory rotation.. And I've got my dose already..

So skang ni asyik blocked nose or bersin je.. and I know I shouldnt be going to CF unit ble tak sihat because they are immunocompromised patients.. Luckily didnt have any symptoms when I'm at CF unit... Cool huh ?? and time teaching la asyik nak bersin je....

I think I have rhinitis... Sbb salu bersin awal pagi and mlm... And I should tell that to my GP sbb its related to Asthma... Oh well.....

Dah start ngarut... Exam is coming really soon... we have about a month and a bit to revise... And I'm freaking out already....

Ok.. have to go now... Cause tomorrow morning I have a consultant teaching.... And I'm planning to present a history that I took yesterday to him... And I have to revise respiratory examination again before doing it tomorrow.... And the list continues.....

p/s : Hopefully it wont rain at 4 because I really2 wanna go jogging today... Bute park here i come !!!!

Broken Stringssss

It's James Morrison's song.. And it's my favourite song at the moment....

And as usual... Jen will come and sit in my room for ours and we just had random conversation... She asked me to play some music... As usual.... Because we usually have music on while having conversation...

Since we are already sick of GLEE songs... not we... Me.... So, I decided to put another playlist on... And Jen being Jen.. She'll say SKIP to the songs that she doesnt like...

And after skipping a few songs, I just said to her...

H : My laptop is stuck.. Can't skip anymore... (Was lying actually)

And guess which song came out... It's Broken Strings by James Morrison.. Jen doesnt particularly likes this song... So, she started laughing and threw all my pillows and soft toys to me.. I was like.. It's stuck !!! Haha....

But then... Didnt want to see her dying slowly so I changed the song..

Anyways... Jen did her respiratory in Llandough last year.. And since she's at the bottom of the list as well, so, she got the CF team... And we just couldnt stop talking about our team...

Who wants to miss placement when you got a "kacak, muda (34) dan bergaya" consultant... Purposely did that in Malay.. in case ade yg terbaca... Motivation untuk g placement !!!!

Ok.. need to get back to my respiratory revision as there's somebody that I need to impress... Muahahaha.. (Gelak evil)...

Gatai la...

Respiratory Medicine ~

Yes.. I'm currently doing my Resp Medicine in Llandough Hosp (UHL).... And it has the longest corridor in Europe.. Somebody told me that it's 460m... So, if I walk up and down the corridor sehari leh wat more than 1km ni... haha... Plus, in UHL, the carpark for students is down at the gravel... Very the far man !!! About 5-10 minutes walk to the Academic Building.. Since the hosp is soooo OLD, the academic building or the common room is in a different building.. So, extra 5 minutes walk to get to the hosp.... So, do your maths.. Agaknye banyak mane calories yg leh dibakar di UHL ?? haha... So, I dont have to jogging or gym anymore... haha... Plus weather is not helping either... everyday hujan... tak leh g jogging.. and kena berjalan dlm hujan g main hosp building....

And today, we got the snow !! AGAIN !!! Walked in the snow to the main hosp building... Then, went to CF unit... Sempat sesat dulu.. Met my consultant... (Lucky me.. Dpt consultant yg diidamkan).. But then, he asked me where my friends are... He thought there will be 3 students under CF team.. But this time around ade 2 je... And unlucky me, dpt partner yg tak nak dtg or kdg2 tu "ill".... Not the first time I have this problem.. Dah penat kot... Dulu time ROSS kat Bridgend pun kena partner mcm ni.. Salu kena soal ngan consultant... And kdg2 tu nak nangis.. Because I wanted to learn, but since partner tak dtg, consultant tak de mood nak ajar.... Kdg2 tu diaorg keen nak ajar... And ble sorang2 time placement, ble kena tanya soklan, tak de support system kalo tak tau.... As example today, my consultant just did a short teaching.... Maybe because sorang je kot students.. Sedih ok !!!! Did respiratory examination.. But he did say I'm quite good considering it's my first time..

And since snow agak lebat, I asked for a permission to leave early... I got a lift from Sanam in the morning.. but then she left at about 11.30 due to snow.. and she left be behind... And adrian said he's leaving as well... And time tu rasa desprate plak.. cause kalo sume org balik, mcm mane nak blk ptg kang... and fair enuf.. ade je CARDIFF BUS... So, bleeped my team... and they said I can go.. And they even said if i have prob to get home, tell them and they'll sort something out.. hahaha..

So, here I am.. Revising on cardiology and respiratory.. because i just have this feeling that I wanna do WELL all of sudden..Like really2 WELL... So, nak belajar la...

So not motivated !!

I am a kind of person who usually gets really excited and keen about clinical placement..

But not anymore... Especially not today... I dont know why.... This morning I couldnt find my watch... And then, got my timetable at UHW.. Since kena wat respiratory dulu, so I will be based in UHL (Lllandough) for 4 weeks before UHW(Cardiff) for 4 weeks of Cardiology...

And got my resp timetable.. as usual... diaorg suka wat ikut surname... So, i got the last team... AGAIN !! not fun ok !! Group lain 4 students.. my group.. tak de group.... 2 students.. and guess what.. i got the CF (cystic fibrosis) team... Haish.. Malas nak merengek byk pasal CF team.. basicaaly jen said u wont learn much sebab dia pun dpt CF team last week... And half of the time in the timetable I will be with the general medicine team.. APAKAH ??? Stress kot.. sah2 dah wat General MED kat Merthyr....

And uni tak bg transport utk ke Lllandough.. BECAUSE THEY ASSUME EVERYBIDY HAS A CAR... Kalo amik bus kena tukar kat town... So, sejam la jugak... And Lauren said since dia tak lalu my house utk g Llandough, so tak leh la tumpang dia.. Sebab dia kena detour nak amik... And rumah dia jauh la jugak kalo nak jln.. 40 mins...

So, dengan muka tak malu, gi la tanya org lain leh tumpang ke tak.. Basically hari mmg tebalkan muka la.. Tanya org sana sini.. Org yg tak kena sgt pun terpaksa la tanya sbb nak tumpang nye pasal.. And dlm kete, terus tpk.. Tak nak balik SUMMER la.. Nak simpan duit.. and then nak keje... and beli kete... sbb dah bosan kena merayu kat org... And tonight ade meeting oncology kat my tutor's house.. and had to beg somebody for a lift as well sbb tak de public transport g umah tutor tu... hish !!!!!!!!!

But then... I think deep inside i'm just beine emotional.. maybe hormones kot.. or maybe just the workload... or maybe mmg tgh stress... But jen said... "It's the Cardiff and Vale placement"... Because mmg sume org tak suka placement under cardiff and vale NHS trust....

Hopefully I will feel better tomorrow.. and more motivated... I dunno...

Baby are you down down down down !!!!

A bit... With the load of work.. and other stupid stuffs around me...

Anywass... Ada post ni kat blackboard !!!

I am aware that several of you in year 3 are already investigating ideas for your electives in year 5. At the current time we are going to need to make some changes to the timetabling of modules in year 5. This is in order to incorporate a period of ' student assistantships' as stipulated in the GMC's new version of Tomorrow's Doctors and to bring forward the final examinations.
This means that the elective period will probably not occur in September / October 2011, but will occur later in the year, ie after the final examinations and is more likely to be in May / June 2012. This is still under discussion but will be confirmed after the next Board of Studies meeting in April. We will inform you all as soon as things are confirmed.

Miss Sweetland.
Acting Dean of Undergraduate Studies.

I am soooo not happy with this one !!! I wanna go home for my electives.. plus leh la cuti lama sket and raya kat msia for the first time after 4 years... And ... kalo buat time may/june.. rugi la nak blk msia and dtg blk for consolidation and then graduation.... Yes.. It seems like so far away.. watpe nak pk skang.... but hello... 2011 is next year...

Plus... semlm ade briefing pasal exam.... Stress bertambah... We got the dates ages ago.. but lupa nak post....

1) 6/04/2010 - Essay under exam condition
2) 19/04/2010 - Paper C - CVR, DGR, HiS, and HOM
3) 22/04/2010 - Paper D - Ali, I&I, MDTA, MS and Neuro..
4) 28-30/04/2010 - OSCE

Macam mana nak stat study ??
Coursework bertimbunan !!

I did say earlier that term ends on 23rd July.. Ingatkan nak balik after 9th sbb SSC submit on 9th... Tp, semlm Dr. G ckp sume kena stay smpai 23rd !! Sebab in case uni panggil... Tp, I have been a very keen student sejak 1st year lg tau.. Tunggu smpai term abis sdgkan org lain blk msia... But this year, I wanna go home early.. Sbb cuti pendek je... Hish.. No wonder la student statisfaction Cardiff teruk skali....

Ok la... Nak penat beleter...

Katie's London Trip...

I know I shouldnt be updating my blog when i have to finish my 2000 words essay... But guess what ? Who cares about Medical Evidence Coursework !!

Anywayzzzz... Seperti yang telah dicanangkan seblm ni... I went to London last weekend with my frens.. 9 of us !!!... And guess what.. This trip was fully sponsored by my fren's parents... I got to know her in the 1st year... She's in my tutorial group and we got closer in 2nd year.. And 3rd year ? She's like my adopted housemate... Or I would say I'm her adopted housemate jugak.. Because selalu sgt lepak kat rumah each other... At 1st tu mcm nak reject je invitation dia.. Ye la.. Travelling ngan budak local... My 1st experience lak tu.. Mcm2 dlm kepala otak.. Susah nak mkn la.. Nak solat la... But her parents insisted... I met her dad a few times... Sebab kdg2 dia dtg UHW utk meeting.. and he's a consultant dekat Swansea and I met him time nursing placement jugak.. And I didnt want to say NO either... hahaha... And yes.. I did go... And alhamdulillah.. my frens were very understanding... I woke up early for Subuh.. and they didnt mind coming back for my Zohor and Asar... And food wise, ok la.. mkn vegetarian.. lgpun kat london byk kedai halal... Kdg2 kan, tepk blk... Kte ni byk sgt pikir and rasa sume benda susah.. Padahal tak susah pun.. hehe..

Katie rented an apartment kat Battersea... about 15-20 mins from Victoria.. The apartment was MasyaAllah.. great !! Like a dream house !!!!! And she didnt wanna tell us how much it was.. but we knew in the end because Lizzie checked online... Sume childish gle kot.. Melompat sakan when we got in... And it's self catered...

The lounge...

My bedroom.. Shared with Lizzie and Anna

Mak Cik cantik

I wasnt planning to go shopping sbb malas.. So, on Saturday we went 'sightseeing'.. Konon la.. Padahal dah penah pegi sume tmpt tu.. We did go to the science museum gak.. Esp yg medicine history tu.. Geekyyyy gle ktorg !! But it was good fun...

Millenium Bridge

4 of us who went around london together..

Museum

And then that night was the big night.. Pegi tgk play.. or musical.. I didnt know which one she picked.. but i did tell her that I've watched grease and lion king.. She bought Sister Act instead... hurm... Kecewa gak.. because i really2 wanted to watch sound of music or mamma mia.. But tak pe la.. org dah beli... Not bad i would say.. but lion king is still the best... heheh....

Before leaving the apartment for the show

Katie.. and Me

Then we left on Sunday morning.. It was a great weekend.. But now back to reality... hahaha...

p/s : More pictures on facebooooookkk !!!

Familiessss ~

This is a 3 way conversation between me, Mama (phone) and Angah (MSN)... Tapi tak la bulat2...

Niyah : Niyah pi London Jumaat ni..
Mama : Ooo.. Ijah ada barang nak pesan...
Niyah : Apa ??
Mama : Beg longchamp nak buat handluggage.. Yang besaq sket la...
Niyah : La.. yang tu tunggu nak balik summer la baru beli kat Heathrow..
Mama : Tak tau la.. Tanya la dia... Dia bagi duit nanti...
Niyah : Colour apa nak ??
Mama : Brown.. Matching nak beg mama... Tanya la ijah..
Niyah : Satu ja ka ?
Mama : Share je la..

Niyah : Angah.. niyah pi london... nak pesan apa ?
Angah : Blouse...
Niyah : Mama kata angah nak pesan beg...
Angah : Hahaha... Mama yang nak !! Tp, aku bayaq....
Niyah : Ceh.. colour apa ?
Angah : Purple.. deep purple...
Niyah : Mama kata nak brown..
Angah : Tak mau la brown.. boring...
Niyah : Apa size baju angah kalo TM Lewin ??

And the conversation continues about blouses... and sizes... and link to tm lewin nye website...

Apakah ?? Org tgh stress, depa ckp pasai shopping pulak....

But... One good thing about talking to people at home is that it's always like breathing fresh air... No matter how serabut my life is, lepas tu akan rasa ok... Walaupun kejap je ok tu....

We are now in our lecture weeks... 2 weeks.. and I'm struggling to do this one stupid coursework... And stress.... and terus emo la... Ape lagi....

After this ade 8 weeks of CVR block... 4 weeks kat Llandough Hosp and another 4 kat UHW.... And after that EXAM !!! Waaaa

And.. 3rd year abis officially on 23rd July... Tp, SSC submit 9th July.. So, bleh kot balik after 9th... And 4th year start 31st Aug.. Basically kena balik Cardiff by 30th.... Hurm... How depressing is that huh ??? Let's start hunting for flight ticketsss babeh....

Pssttt !

I changed my mind... I changed my perception towards orthopedic surgeon.... Negatives changed to positives....

Yayayaya... My friends knew why all of sudden I like ortho... Haish..

Oh my... I dont think I can be one tho....

Ok.. Have to stop talking about it before somebody actually kick me... Ngeh...

p/s : Sweet dreams Husniyah.... Knee replacement !!!

Clap clap...

Yesterday... I gave blood.... Yeay !! After lectures, Lizzie and I went straight to the UHW sports centre to give blood.. But it was really busy so the asked us to make an appointment and come back later... But then, Lizzie had to go to Velindre Hosp for her Oncology Tutorial... So, we took the last session... 4.30 pm nye block.....

So, yes !! We gave blood... And we didnt faint or felt dizzy or anything... And we even walked home from UHW....

Anywayssss... And today, I had to go to Neath Port Talbot Hosp (NPTH) since ortho theatre ade kat sana.. So, Arep and I took the early bus from UHW to POW (Bridgend) at 7.15 am... Sebab dua2 tak leh drive, so, kena la amik bus and then later transport free from POW to NPTH....

Overall.. Agak productive la hari ni... 2 knee replacement... and athorscopy and halfway nak start hip replacement.. My consultant wanted me to stay for the hip replacment.. but i said i had to get back to POW for 5pm bus to UHW... He asked us to cancel the hosp transport and said the registrar will drive us back to POW before 5... So, yes.. stayed a bit smpai patient under GA... then I had to leave... Tak penah tgk consultant yg kecewa student tak dpt stay dlm OT... He was really2 upset... sorrry !!!

Tomorrow is our last day of ROSS.... Bye2 POW... Actually sgt2 sedih la.. Sbb we got really2 close... I'll try and take a photo of us 10 together esok...

Ok la... need to get back to work... tata....

Random ~

Another week in Bridgend.. Then we are DONE !!! Cepat gle.. tup tup dah 8 minggu.... 4 weeks of surgery, 2 weeks of rheumatology and 2 weeks of ortho....

I'm now doing ortho... Hurm... Dgn rasminya, saya potong ortho from list of specialities that I wanna do... A big NO NO !!! Rheumatology ?? Not bad la... Best la jugak... Boleh consider...

Anyway... 1st week of ortho was fine.. Read it again... just fine... Nothing exciting.. And tak de la boring sgt... Bleh tahan la.. We got 3 free lunches a week... Tp, on the other side, kena g ortho lunch meeting.. Basically tgk x-rays selama sejam and cari kat mane nye fracture ?? haha....

Serius.. until today, kdg2 tu tak nampak pun fracture dlm x-ray... Kena tunggu consultant bgtau baru mcm nampak kat mana nye fracture... Was in clinic last Thursday with Mr.M... Quite a young consultant... Tp, tak leh la nak impress dia sebab sume fracture tak nampak.... But he even said... "It's fine if u dont know.. I'm expecting u not to know it... Because if u can see it, then u are not a student".. Betul la jugak... Tp, hampehnya consultant... Nama pun Orthopod....

Anywaysssss... After ortho, we have 2 weeks of lectures... then CVR... Then EXAMS... OMG.. dah dekat la exam rupanya... Ok.... Kena study... Tata ~

GLEE !!!

I'm crazily in love with Glee... A new tv series from America....

It's like high school musical.. but better !! Because they sang the songs that we know... I can't stop watching it.. Luckily I have stopped watching Gossip Girls ages ago... So, tak la rasa bersalah sbb byk tgk tv... But think about it again.... Mmg tak byk tgk tv sgt pun sejak 3rd year ni... So, tak pe la....

Everybody talks about glee now... And we even got the soundtracks in our ipods... hehehe...

Ada byk benda nak update... tapi, malas.....