Ya Allah... berilah aku kekuatan..

At the moment... letih gle....

Yesterday, spent the whole day walking up and down the corridor of Llandough Hospital... Melawat dan menjaga kwn yg sakit... Plus with the exam coming... So, still had to stay up late to study... Dekat hospital pun study... Phew....

Then, after visiting hours abis, we rushed to find food... Since Llandough Hospital dekat ngan Cardiff Bay, so, ingat nak mkn Pizza je la.. Tgk2 pizza hut tutup awal... So, went to ASDA and beli pizza and blk masak dlm oven je...

By 10pm baru mkn dinner... Then, study sket bersama rakan2... Ala2 study group sbb sume dah stress....

Smpai this weekend je nak study... Then, dah stat placement... Percaya atau tidak... TAK SHOPPING pun lg.... Kecewa la jugak... Tp, tak pe la... Tunggu after exam terus g town !!!

Then, after L left, start tgk diary... 2010 is gonna be a really2 tough year... Sgt2 byk deadlines... examssss and mcm2 lagi.... So, here I am asking all of you to pray that my 2010 will be great and smooth... insyaAllah.... Ameen....

Ok la... got to go... Laundry is waiting !!

Shopping...

I didnt do any shopping during Boxing day... Ala.. sale smpai January kot.. tak yah kalut2.. buat pening kepala ja pi town time ramai org....

Since I travelled on the 27th.. so, tak shopping gak..

Until yesterday... I went to town.. Pegi awal la sbb takut ramai org... Just got myself a gift set perfume.. Actually byk perfume that I wanted tgh ade offer skang... Kalo ikut hati mmg beli 3 kot.. haha.. because mmg dari dulu lg suka these prefumes plus perfume yg ade skang dah abis..
I wanted Lacoste Pink, Davidoff Cool Water and somebody introduced me to Sarah Jessica Parker Lovely.. But since SJP nye bau mcm plg best semlm plus better bargain sbb dpt yg 50ml nye perfume, so amik la yg tu... And got a new pair of linen trousers from Next... Tu je...

I saw a nice Nine West handbag in Debenhams... Tp, GBP49... tunggu la nanti2 kot2 turun lg... hehehe... And ade jugak handbag cantik kat Accesorize... hadoi... But, at the moment, simpan duit dulu in case I need some retail therapy after stress study...

At the moment... I need to study for my Data Interpretation and Analysis exam on the 8th of Jan... Placement akan start balik on the 4th... and yet we still have an exam on the 8th... So, kena study skang sbb confem ble placement nanti letih and tak leh study.. But it's rheumatology and orthopedics.. sume org kata R&O sgt2 lepak.. So, hopefully abis awal... ngeh...

Skang gym tutup cause tgh refurbish... So, tak leh g gym utk destress.. dah la asyik mkn je keje sbb sejuk... GEMUK...

Ok ah.. dah penat update... nak kena study plak... Ta ~

Belfast ~

I bought ticket yg balik from Belfast.. since I wanted to see Nana (kwn back at KMB) .. and it's cheaper...

Since Wany and Nad wanted to go to Belfast for Boxing Day, so thr 4 of us took the morning bus to Belfast....Waiting for the bus ~

Belfast City Hall

Victoria Square ~ Shopping ~

Being a good girl... tak beli ape2 pun kat Belfast... Sebab tak check in luggage.. Plus, tak rasa nak shopping sgt... But I admitted they have more shops compared to Cardiff la...

In front of Queen's University..

Nana.... Lovely friend yg patut dtg Cardiff skali ~

And the next day, I took the 10.45 flight back to Bristol... Ni pun drama... Coz, no direct trains from Bristol Temple Meads to Cardiff sebab ade engineering work... So, I had to take the train to Bristol Parkway, then bus from Bristol Parkway to Newport and finally train from Newport to Cardiff....

Dah la train to Parkway tak frequent.. Tunggu sejam kot... Then smpai Bristol Parkway, berjuta kot org yg nak naik bus g Newport... dah la mmg ramai org travel.. plus sume org ada luggage byk2... sapa kata MatSalleh berdisiplin ?? Sume berebut gak naik bus... siap potong2 line lg... But sbb dah penat and malas nak layan.. tunggu je la dgn sabar... And dpt la naik bus ke-6 kot.. haha....

Then lepas je Severn Bridge, jam teruk nak masuk Wales dekat toll.... Lizzie and Lauren dah berjuta kali text tanya nak smpai kul bape.. and I told them the story.. Lauren drove to Newport to pick me up and saved me some time having to wait for the next train.. Thanx Lauren.. Smpai rumah dha kul 4.30 ptg... Letih... But had sooo much fun with my frens in Ireland.. Thanx to Mimah, Mun n Nana for being great hosts.....

p/s : Gambar byk kat facebook untuk kaum kerabat yg rasa nak tgk... heheheh...

Dublin... Last part...

On Christmas day, we studied all morning... hahaha... since tak de public transport nak kuar kan... But we did go out after lunch.... mencari sebotol susu, dah sesikat pisang untuk dibuat cekodok...

We went to Phoenix Park... Berjalan kaki... sbb tak la jauh sgt... Sepanjang hari jalan mcm penguin.. sebab licin... waa... sakit kaki lepas tu....

Nampak tak jalan belakang tu... Mun ajak turun, tapi I rejected the idea... Because i said nanti jatuh sbb licin.. mcm skating lak..

Posing je lebih.. tak masuk pun sebab tutup...

Next post : Belfast ~

Dublin part 2

As usual... kalo g holiday mesti gi jejalan.. So, Mun bawak la round2 Dublin.. But we didnt go any further than Dublin nye city cause Mun ade exam in January... Plus I have an exam as well on the 8th... Dua2 kena study... hehehe...

Dublin city centre...

Trinity College..

Baca ECG sket2.. Pemalas betul..

We didnt go to UCD tho.. next time la.. heh
We cooked Kueh Teow Kung Fu... Muahahah... Wany and Nad arrived on the 24th selepas berjalan2 di Europe...Wany and Nad

Nyum2...

And visited another M05B fren.. Amirah...

Dublin part 1

DRAMA !!!

Jen offered me a lift to Bristol Aiport... But since UK dpt 'snow' the 2 days before I left, we were quite worried that she will not be able to drive all the to Bristol... So, awal2 pg, she went out and wat test drive.. i mean nak tgk her skills driving on the ice la konon.... It snowed on the night.. and the next morning, since the temp is toooo low, so snow pun tak melt la.. and jadi ice... like proper ice.... and the ice stayed for about 2 days kot..

She drove to Velindre Hospital that morning to visit her patient... And Katie came to our place after that... She told us about the 'news'.. Both Severn Bridges (bridge utk ke England from Wales) are closed due to ice falling from the bridge... agak bahaya la coz kene kereta kan... But, ade laluan lain which is gonna take about 2 hours... So, we decided to leave early... But then, elok naik kereta je ade news kata traffic teruk smpai Newport.... In my mind mcm dah pasrah.. Tak pegi pun tak pe... So, we went straight to Cardiff Central to check the train tickets... Dah la RailCard dah expired.. kena renew... Dah naik harga kot... Time 1st year GBP20 je.. last year 22... this year jd 26 weh.... Stress !!! And train pulak delayed coz snow... And at that moment rasa mcm patut ke bazirkan duit and naik train jugak and end up having to come back to Cardiff sebab telepas flight.... But I took the train yg kul 1... smpai Bristol Temple Meads kul 2.... sbb delay... and kelam kabut amik bus... dah la bus lmbt smpai.... Berlari2 la kat Bristol Airport tu... Tgk2 flight delay.... Ceh... buang energy ja.... So, I made it to Dublin...

Ni gambar lepas snow dah tak tebal

First night I stayed at Mimah's house.. She was my roomate back in KMB... then baru jumpa Moon the next day sebab dia baru balik from Notts... Busy lady la katakan.... Ngeh ~

Mimah and Me ~

One of the reasons why I went to Dublin... Mun

Because she is going home soon... For GOOD...

To be continued...

Dublin Trip..

I wish to write about my winter hols.... Will update later... but photos are on facebook.. Will write later... penat ~

1 more day ~

Yes... I more day.. Then I'm free from surgery...

Actually dah Merdeka since last week since my consultant dah sign my forms.. (Budak nerd, consultant sign la awal).. But then, being a keen bean, pegi la hospital hari2 gak... Still bgn kul 5.45 pg and kuar umah kul 6.50 pg just to catch the bus from Heath to POWH, Bridgend....

Makin hari, makin susah nak bgn pg.... And dah nak dekat ngan holiday, fikiran melayang.. Like during ward rounds muka mcm nak tido... Team tgk semcm je... Then, during clinic, kena amik history from like 5 patients and all my histories are like RUBBISH.... punya la malas.... huhu... dah la partner dah tak dtg sbb dia dah malas... So, tinggal la sorang terkapai2 and kemalasan...

So, tomorrow morning ada ward round and ward work... Then my reg akan buat teaching utk sume surgical students kul 11.00 pg, and 2nd teaching by another reg kul 12.30tgh... So, should abis kul 1.30 pm la esok... Which is GREAT !!!!!!!! But, tak de transport nak blk... Waaa... Might have to catch the train back.... hadoi... And I think 3 org je kot surgical students yang akan dtg esok... hadoi....

I used to think that I'm gonna be upset to leave Urology team.. But NOT !! Ntah la.. minggu ni mcm tak suka urology... Tgk muka junior doctors mcm dah tak lalu dah nak jumpa... And I think diaorg pun dah bosan tgk muka ktorg...

I more day to freedom !!!!

It's been a year ~

Dah sethn dah kot blog ni wujud.. Ngeh...

Tak ingat the exact day when i first started blogging... But I know it was during last year's semi final... I mean SCD nye semi final... Hari ni semi final utk SCD 2009... So, dah sethn la kiranya blog ni... heh....

I just wanna cry ~

My two days could never be worst than this...

Ohw well...

At least its weekend !!

Thursday - By myself (again) all day long.. Was in Mr. S's clinic after lunch... Ok... Akan tulis dalam bahasa melayu... Sume org tau this surgeon mcm sgt2 menakutkan.. So, I went there dgn muka pucat.... But, luckily, the F1 and Reg were there.. So, mcm buffer the atmosphere a bit... Each he sent me away with a patient, mmg muka nak nangis...

Before he went to see his last patient, he said "Whoever has finised can go"... The F1 looked at me and he said GOOO !!!! Ape lg, asked him to sign my form and terus kuar....

And did my on call... Nothing much to say.... Was quiet....

And today, POST TAKE ward round was horrible... Bormbarded by questions... and rasa bodoh gle2....

Lepas break pegi teaching... Asyik kena tengking... Knowing too much salah... Tak tau pun salah... Stress gle... Sume surgical students emo kot.. Due to high ego, sorang pun tak mintak signature from this registrar.... Emo nye pasal, Ross and I walked all the way to the train station and took the train back to Cardiff... And to make the day worse, train sgt2 penuh.... So, berdiri la kami sepjg journey 20 mins... And smpai Cardiff sejuk gle2... And walked home from the train station....

Haish... Am I doing the right thing ??

High...

Salam wbt....

I know I shouldnt be saying this in the Blog.. Tp, nak jugak !! Cause I'm soooooo HAPPY !!!

I was on my own as usual la this morning.. Went to the ward... And Alison tagged along because her ward round abis awal... So, smpai ward kul 8.30 pg for ward round.. Surgical ward round mmg stat awal.. Usually bila smpai ward, diaorg dah halfway tru... Elok2 smpai ward, jumpa my registrar... The F1 and F2 are not in.. Dont know why.. I told him that the F2 on nights.. Dont know about the F1... (I know the team more than he does kah ? )...All of sudden he said..

R : Have u done bloods before ??
H : (Muka confuse).. Yes... but under supervision...
R : Ok.. U have to do one now...But i cant supervise u..
H : Huh ?
R : I have theatre at 9.. So, I have to finish ward round before that.. And this blood needs to be done now.. Urgent...
H : Ok.. I'll try...

Alison was unsure... She never done it before while I have done it a few times.. but obviously with the help from other doctors.... My reg passed me the form, and showed me the patient and left....

I was Sooooo PANIC !! So, pegila amik brg2... Lepas tu, went to see the patient.. And guess what ??? I GOT IT !!! yeay !! Was really2 happy.... Sebab buat sendiri.. Ingatkan nak teketar2... but Alison said I looked very confident... Muahahahha... and yes.. I'm soo happy.. And then he asked me to send the sample to Pathology.. Balik from Pathology, ikut la dia for ward round... Since the junior doctors are not in, saya la terpaksa buat forms and paperwork... Forms for bloods and ultrasound je pun... And the ward sister ingat I am the junior doctor so, she kept asking me question... What ??

Lepas tu, malas nak g OT... Amik history, then lepak kat Common Room.. Didnt learn much today.. Even the reg mcm ckp sorry sbb tak sempat nak ajar ape2.. I said to him, "It's fine.. at least now I know where the forms are, how to do bloods and where pathology is... "

Yeay !!! Sume org tak puas hati sbb diaorg jrg dpt buat bloods or venflons... I have done quite a lot considering that I'm a 3rd year.... Owh well... Untung pegi placement ngan partner yg pemalas sket.. Dpt bolot sume sorang2... heeeee...

p/s : We 3rd years are under a lot of pressure after seeing the topics for this January's Data Interpretation and Analysis exam.... FREAKING OUT !!

Such a drama queen ~

Yesterday, after watching SCD result show, I changed the channel.. Tup2 I found this movie on BBC 3
Yes.. Its' pearl harbor... So, I stayed in the living room to watch this movie again.. Dah bape kali tgk pun tak ingat... Sampaikan my housemate ajak kuar g Nandos pun tak layan.. Dont tell her that... Sebab I told Lauren n Jen that I was just tired.. So, malas nak kuar.. Padahal dalam hati nak tgk Ben Affleck.. muahaha... but i was tired tho... tak tipu...

Bygkan, dah bape kali tgk cte tu pun, I still cried at the end... hadoi.. Nangis yang over lak tu.. Haish....

Ok ah.. need to do some readings...

What's new ??

Nothing...

Just wanna write something... nak update la konon... Sorry to people at home esp abah and mama for not calling them.. seriously i couldnt find the time to call them.. sebab kuar rumah awal pagi, tak sempat nak gayut... balik rumah dah kul 6ptg which means org kat msia dah tido... and bila mlm, tdo kul 10/11 mlm.. org kat msia baru nak bgn... haish...

Since i'm doing surgery now, so agak penat la since kena travel ari2... Placement tak de la teruk sgt.... which is a lie kdg2... But after all, there's always something that makes me smile by the end of the day.... plus, placement makes me lose weight.. haha...

Like example.. We knew since last week who our new f1 is... And was not looking forward for that.. sebab mcm2 cerita la dgr pasal minah ni... Tp, tak tau sape f2 yang baru until I met him on the ward on Thursday. He seems a bit quiet tho... Tp, mcm baik gle kot !! Dia pun mcm agak confuse sebab baru start his work at Urology... So, on Thursday, I took a patient's history, and after that, this f2 asked me ok ke tak.. Muka malu2 ckp ok je.. Then dia tanya nak amik darah tak ?? I said yes la.. but he said, "no pressure!!"... I was shaking kot time tu... argh !! Eventho dah penah buat a few time in Merthyr, but the last time I attemped, I failed.. But that was like 4 weeks ago kot.. And this time, he talked me thru it.. As some people dont know, when I start to panic, my face will go hot and red.. and start shivering... Nasib baik la patient tu baik and the f2 was there to support me... Yeay !!! Did it... He said it was a 'perfect' one.. The patient said he didnt feel anything... he said phleb yang amik darah the day before was worse... haha... So, I couldnt stop smiling... This f2 keeps on saying that I did a good job... better than he was when he was a 3rd year.. heeee.. Mmg senyum lebar la sehari..

And today... I presented another history... He said it was really good esp my diff diagnosis and my description on the pain.. walaaaaa ~ Another smile.. Dia tanya ade ape2 ke nak dia ajar.. i requested for some examinations la.. malangnye, he wont be in next week... he'll be doing nights... Which means we'll be stuck with this F1... waaaaa... But, on the bright side, I will be on call on the 10th.. which means, i know which f2 i'll be working with time on call... ngeh2....

We survived the 1st 2 weeks of surgery placement.. Em... Some people might say it's nothing.. but not in Bridgend when u have to get sign off for every single thing... and byk gle benda yang nak kena buat... and being a keen girl... sah2 la dpt signature utk sume kan... hehehehe...

Our surgery rotation form

Such a keen bean... Pegi sume benda... :)

Annoying.. When u have to get somebody to sign ur form every half an hour.. :P

But, fair enuf.. i like being keen... dah la dpt partner yg malas nak dtg or suka ponteng... So, i am always on my own.. So, mcm agak rapat ngan team and they are now willing to teach me and give me more responsibilites... which makes me happy la of course... as example.. time ward round, they ask me about patients sebab diaorg pun lupa which patient is which etc... And I have to show them places around the hosp when we do the outliers... cool eh ?? hehe... So, i got to do more stuff like venflons and bloods.... so far i have done 2 venflons and 4 bloods... and cant wait for ABG now... Haish...

Asyik merepek pasal placement je... Em.. ye la nak cte kat sape lagi... Cant wait for christmas break.. i have got my euros for dublin.. heeee.... :)

Ok... need to get back to 'work'.. ie greys anatomy and private practice.. at least i'm learning something on friday evening... heeee....

Mama... niyah pi Bridgend semlm.. ngeh ~

Yes... I did that... Dah la weekdays ari2 pi Bridgend untuk placement.. Semlm pegi lg... Tp, pegi McArthurGlen la... Gle rasa mcm loser... sebab lalu jalan yg sama ari2..

Lizzie text me after gym saying that she wants to go out... Tp, obviously tak leh g town cause ade rugby match... Dia kata nak g McArthurGlen or Talbot Green (Llantrisant).... So, I said yes la ... but said to her after Asar.. Maybe sebab bosan kot dok rumah.. plus tgh homesick sebab org kat rumah makan lauk kambing pastu tak telefon balik.....ceh ~

She came to pick me up at 2... Sampai Bridgend kul 2.30... Ramai gle org kot... Parking penuh.. So, we used the overflow car park... Hurm.. Bridgend is super duper sejuk and hujan...

Disebabkan ramai org... we didnt buy anything.. except for a diary for myself kat the works.. yes... memandangkan dah tak dpt diary TM dah, so beli la satu... bajet nak jd lebih organise next year... Lizzie and I both need to be more organised... Kalo tak huru hara hidup... asyik lupa dates je... hahaha..

Then... elok dah abis satu round, baru teringat I need to get a water proof jacket... Tapi tak nak baju hujan.. and nak yg berkualiti... ari2 g placement mesti kebasahan sebab hujan n angin kuat... so, tawaf la satu bridgend cari waterproof yg ade fleece yg tak mahal sgt.. Punya la kedekut... byk gle kedai masuk, satu pun tak berkenan...

Then, Lizzie ajak g Matalan kat Talbot Green... Cause I said to her kat Matalan ade.. aritu nampak... So, went there and I bought one !!! Trespass and kaler merah !!! Ade pink and purple.. Tp, amik merah la... yeay !!! plus ade 20% off (dont ask me the price... but i think its reasonable sebab welsh weather ni membasahkan... )Bahagia gle... So, tidakla kebasahan lagi lepas ni... atas je la.. seluar still basah... tp, tak yah la berperang ngan payung dah lepas ni ble angin kuat !!!

Arent we good girls ??? Tak shopping sakang pun... Beli yg perlu je... haha....

p/s : Pssstttt... Angah, guess size ape niyah beli waterproof tu ?? Sooo proud of myself... :P

Happy but sad ??

Sedih la... Woke up early and siap2 nak g hospital... upset la... It's raya and i have no plans... Ingat nak pakai baju kurung, tp, sbb angin kuat gle nak jalan kul 6.45 pg.. so, mcm tak jd...

Stress sebab during ward round, asyik kena tanya ngan reg.. hadoi... byknye benda nak kena tau... dah ah tak de partner ari ni.. so, terkapai2 jawab sorang2... and tbe2 je the F1 suro intepret ECG... muka selamba je ckp.. I know nothing about ECG.... Kena interpret x-ray... Tau baca nama n age... and yg lain2 tak confident nak sebut... hadoi... stress gle... lots of work la nak kena wat this weekend...

And patut ade surgery kul 1.30 and teaching at 2... jadual yg tak logik.. so, decided to go to teaching instead.. tgk2 dua2 teaching cancelled... so, surgery tak masuk, teaching pun tak de... Habuk pun tarak... Nasib baik ade org drivekan balik... tak yah tunggu bas kul 5...

Anyway... nak balik RAYA kat msia... em.. but... at least ari ni happy sebab put venflon in again... yeay !! Agak tekerjut gak sbb patient tu nye vein agak susah.. tp, F1 tu suro wat... luckily berjaya !! He asked me to do ABG gak.. tp, tak berani nak puncture the patient's artery... so, he did it and said next time i'll do it...

Will there be a next time ?? Dont think so... sbb bukan sume F1 baik... heeeeee

List of things to do this weekend :
1) 2 historys..
2) Prepare for breast clinic
3) Read ECG made easy again (hopefully kali ni paham betul2)
4) Update lecture notes...
5) Call oncology patient..

And the list continues... Hadoi...

Selamat Hari Raya ~

I HAVE to spend my raya in the hospital.... Wanna know why ??

Because my partner is doing on call tonight.... So, he has to do Post take ward round tomorrow morning... Which means, tinggal saya seorang saja untuk ward round team U... So, I kind of like HAVE to go !!! Plus, the registrar is quite nice... And, the F1s and F2s are rotating next week... So, we will be getting a new F1 for Urology (Btw, I'm with urology team for 4 weeks)... ngeh... So, now I know bladder and kidneys really well... Anyway, back to F1, the next 3 weeks akan menjadi sgt2 huru hara sbb this F1 sgt dikenali sebagai sgt2 strict/stress or mcm2 lg... Oh well.. We'll survive !!!

Ok... Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha...

lots of love to people at home ~
niyah

What a day ~

So many things happened in a day... leh buat drama.. haha...

Left the house at 6.45am.. and came back at 8.00pm..

Basically we had...

1) Bus sampai UHW lambat...
2) In surgery for 3 hours... Berdiri selama 3 jam... Nick (partner utk surgical block) and I sgt2 sakit pinggang by the end of the day... Plus, surgery yang patut amik 20-40 mins jadi 3 jam sbb mcm ade complication sket.. wooooo....
3) Took the bus back... 5 girls and 1 boy.. Kesian Nick.. Ktorg the gals asyik sembang benda yang selalu girls sembang la kan... Ingatkan dia tido... Tgk2 dia terbgn and gelak kat ktorg... And start mengarut skali.... Bocor segala rahsia perempuan di atas bas itu...
4) Went to ASP group meeting at 6.15... Haish.. Ni pun drama... Kena assult/abuse/harrase dekat cafe tu... Nak cerita panjang, tanya la later.... Takut gle kot time tu... Muka merah padam... Time tu mmg pikir, kalo jd ape2, harap2 Nick leh la selamatkan sebab dia main rugby... muahahaha...
5) Came back at 8pm... And finished all my work basically NOW !! Not all work la... just benda2 yang nak kena siapkan by esok...

So, skang, saya nak tdo !!!!

p/s : To abah n mama.. I will be on call on the 10th Dec... Just got the date yesterday...

What a joke !!

Were having food.. Then,

H : Can we watch Holby on TV now ?? (IPlayer la)
J : Anybody cute ?
H : Owh... New F1... Dr. V...
J : Really ?? Show me.. Is he as cute as Tom Chambers ? (Since Tom left Holby last year)
H : Better !!
J : (Watched Dr. V on TV)... Nope.. Tom is better
H : I think Dr. V is cuter ! Tom is just tooooo round !! I mean his face ~
J : I can't believe this Husniyah.. Last year you were crazy in love with Tom..
H : What ???
J & H : Hahahahaha...

And later, I started watching Tom's videos on youtube.. from Last year's Strictly...

Then jen called me

J: I wanna go for a drive.. Fancy coming with me ?
H : Nope.. Have to do work...
J : Ok...

30 minutes later... Got a text

J: Did I leave my purse on the bed ?
H : YES !!!

Then, she rang me...

J : Can u please get the door... I left my keys...

Haish...

Then... She said
J : I went to the BAY to get petrol... But realised didnt have my purse with when I was about to pay.. So, had to call Katie to come and save me... And she only had 15 pounds with her... So, had to use all my coins for petrol...


HAHAHAHAHAHA...

p/s : To people at home esp abah n mama.. We fixed our shower SENDIRI !! Hebat kan ?? So, shower kitaorg dah best !!!!

We DID it ~

We did it, we did it, we did it.. (Dora's style)...

Yeay... Done with my first block (GPMED)... Bye2 Prince Charles Hospital, Merthyr Tydfill.....


Next block... ROSS.... Princess of Wales Hospital, Bridgend.... And the great thing is, the group of people that I will be spending the next 8 weeks with are BRILLIANT !! Early starts for surgery but I will try to enjoy it !!!



p/s : What happened in Merthyr stays in Merthyr !! :P

I'm a bit high !

It used to be drawing bloods make my day.. Highlights of the week la konon... Whenever I managed to get blood from real people (not dummies) succesfully, then I'll be smiling all day long...

And today, I managed to get this in !!


Yup.. Venflon.. Or IV cannulation... YEAY !!! Obviously I was not by myself... Supervised by the other team's reg... Haha..

And have been jumping all around... Happy !!!

Ok.. Let's hope I can do bloods tomorrow... Coz my consultant is very keen on me being able to do it before Friday... What he means is "Confident to do it on patients by myself".. Very ambitious of him....

I love my camera...

Went to see fireworks at Rhymney... And I used my camera to snap some pics... the fireworks settings la... And the pics are brilliant.... LOVE my camera !! Walaupun pernah ditumpahi air, and terjatuh di Spain... It's still the best camera... hehe...

Missing her ~

It never crossed my mind that I will miss her soo badly.. Having her in London (2hours away) is a bliss... I started to miss going to London on weekends... It's like having a place to go whenever you need to run away from life as a medical student or your housemates.... I need a break.. But currently the only place that I have been spending my weekends after stressful weekdays is my room !! How BORING !!

I need a place that I can go and just pretend that there is nothing to worry about...
Winter holiday is coming soon... And guess what, I have no plans... AT ALL !!! Angah, mai la London buat PHD ka.. ngeh ~

My FREEDOM !!

I finished my 5 Thursdays with KT (Honorary Lecturer) and he signed my A&C form... Which means I'm FREE !!!

So, no more nightmares and sleepless Wenesdays nights...

To celebrate it, we went to Nandos... Katie, Jen, Lizzie and me... Yipee... As usual la... sebab dpt 20% discount guna NHS id... So, enjoy the pics....

Me and Liz got the same boots.. Not exactly the same.. tapi lebih kurang...

Trying to get everyone into the pics... Showing of our NHS id.. The only reason we go to Nando's !!

To angah, 2 more meals then I can get the free whole chicken !! Lagi sethn dpt la kot...

Do I look that old ???

Before getting the vaccine, the nurse asked me...

Nurse : Is there any chance that you might be pregnant ??
Me : NO !!
Nurse : Are you sure ??
Me : I'm NOT pregnant....

** Nampak muka mcm pregnant kah ???

Then, in the clinic....

Dr. B : Are you married ??
Me : NO !
Dr. B : Do u have a boyfriend then ??
Me : NO !!

** Nampak muka mcm dah kawin ke ??

Then, in the clinic the next day...

Dr. B : So, you were born in 1982 ? 27 right ??
Me : (Muka terkejut).. NO... 1987....

Dalam hati "What makes he thinks that I'm 27...

Seriously.... Do I actually look old ??? I'm 22 and single and enjoying it.... What's the matter !! hahaha....

I got it at last ~

Last weak I was unsure nak amik swine flu vaccine or not.... Then, on Monday, went to meet my new team at 9am... And met my new house officer.... Plus the pharmacy... He showed me his site of injection... A bit bruised.. After ward round, the F2 said she's going to get her vaccine now and ask me whether I want it or not.... And without thinking much, I said YES !!! hahaha.....

I dont have any problems with needles... At one point rasa mcm aku ni drug addict ke sbb suka plak ngan needles.... haha.... sket2 org try amik darah.... gle tak de pain receptor.... So, I didnt feel anything when the nurse injected the vaccine....Only the next day I first noticed the side effects.... Obviously la.. amik vaccine ape pun ade side effects... Mula2 tu rasa mcm nak demam.... flu like symptoms.... Then time dlm clinic with Dr. B rasa lenguh2 badan.... Mcm nak kena flu tu.... Dr B asked me what's wrong sebab nampak gelisah kot... haha... So, I told him la... Guess what he said to me...

" You are not strong enough to win this Swine Flu WAR !!"

I was like.... ERMMMMM... Terdiam terus... Anyway.. after about 5 days... dah makin ok.... as usual lenguh2 tangan, and a bit itchy dekat tempat inject tu... but i would say the pain of this vaccine is surely less than the flu itself..... hehehe.... Plus free kot...

Eventho dah amik vaccine, still ade risk untuk kena swine flu... But less la... May Allah protect us la... Bukan takut kena the flu itself... but, as a professional (cewah) we have to prevent from giving it to patients...

Ok la... stop beleter ye Husniyah.... Till then.... Salam sayang buat family at home...

HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY MUHAMMAD ARIFF !!!
From mak cik cantik...

Dilemma ~

To stay at the same house next year or not ??

To get swine flu vaccine tomorrow or not ??

Enough about that...

I'll be with Dr. B for 2 weeks starting tomorrow... And this time around.. ON MY OWN...

Tak cukup lgkah stress ?? haish....

And yesterday went to town... And terjumpa Dr. L (MY GP tutor) dekat town... haish.... MALU ~ But, being a polite student, I said HI to him... Sempat la berbual2 dengan his wife... Phew.....

Ok.. need to get back to endocrinology.... waaaaa ~

Thinking....

I just got crushed into pieces ~

Keserabutan ~

Everybody was asking... Are you excited that your family is coming ??

My answer : Of course la yes... but at the same time SERABUT !!

Why ???
Byk sgt tanggungjawab... Byk sgt kerja nak disiapkan.... Tak sempat nak pk.. Tak sempat nak excited... Like seriously !!!

1) First draft for long case study.... Esok nak kena submit... Dah la takut KT, lg la stress.... Then nak kena prepare for OSCA next Thursday plak... Kalo bukan sebab KT yg strict, mmg tak cuak la.. ni dpt tutor yg ingat dia best... ARGH !!
2) Oncology project.. Bethany text semlm said that the meeting will be on Monday after placement... Basically after 6pm at Valindre... And my placement kat Merthyr... When I got the text, separuh menjerit separuh menangis... Told her that might not be able to make it... Oh well, if we still cant change the date, I guess I still HAVE to do it !!!
3) Personal tutor meeting.. punya la kelam kabut kehidupan sekarang, sampai terlupa nak check e-mail and missed my 1st meeting with my personal tutor... waaaaa.... It was supposed to be today since she's only availabe on Wed sbb hari lain dia kat Newport... Arranged another day with her and hopefully she wont mind....
4) Byk gle baju nak kena basuh.... and since my housemate bagi pinjam bilik diaorg for my familia, have to wash all my beddings cause diaorg nak bawak blk brg2 diaorg and basuh kat rumah... and i havent washed mine yet for this weekend... And baju-bajuan di dalam bakul...
5) Food shopping tak buat lg... so, kepada org2 di rumah yang rasa nak dtg UK and makan sedap, sorry la... I'll try to do it on Saturday...

And the list continues... I am loving my GP placement.. Can't believe Friday ni last day kat Penarth.. and Merthyr plak... Can't imagine my life after this... I timed myself last week... and basically I took about 1 hour to solat subuh, shower, breakfast and bersiap untuk ke placement... and since utk g Merthyr bus kul 7.15, I will have to leave the house the latest at 6.50 am... Therefore kena bangun kul 5.50 am... Kalo untuk g GP kena kuar umah kul 7.30... so bgn kul 6.30.... Tu pun rumah dah mcm tongkang pecah.... Lepas ni mmg bilik plak mcm tongkang pecah....

Ok2... need to stop membebeling... I'll try to be excited after this.. Just that too many things are going on and my brain is not coping really well...

Wish me luck for honorary lecturer esok... (Berdebar2)...

p/s : My long case study 1st draft is the worst first draft that I have ever produced... Owh well... buat lek lok pun confem kena kutuk.. so, buat je la teruk2... hehe...

Paediatrics

Hallooooo ~

Finally it's Friday... Such a lonnnnngggg day... Guess what ?? My GP tutor kept us till 5.30 pm today... we took the 5.45 bus from penarth back to Cardiff and sampai rumah at 6.40...waaaaa.. what a day !!!!

But, that's not the main point of this post.... All this while I keep on thinking that I dont want to be a paediatrician... (sorry kalo salah spelling... tgh kalut)... Anyway... I always have this feeling that I wont be able to handle kids and they will not like me... but guess what ???? I like it now !!! I mean I do like kids before... I can be a cikgu tadika if I want...but not sick/ill kids... Itu semua sejarah.. hehe.. (perasan)....

Got my long case study patient yesterday (Acted as a doctor for 5 mins)... she is a 7 yr old girl with mouth ulcer... and KT said I was very good at taking her history... Basically the girl talked to me and felt very comfortable.. kembang semangkuk... ngeh2... And the patient's little sister tu asyik nangis ble tgk one of my colleagues... ngeh2.. but not me !! Yipee...

And today in GP practice, got 3 kids sekaligus with the daddy la of course... And PL asked me to be the doctor plak... since Jess got the earlier patient.. when he told me that patients (bear in mind more than one) are kids, I covered my face with my book.... I was like.. NOT AGAIN !!! I didnt have any choice did i ?? Luckily, it went well... And they asked me to consider paeds now.... It's still tooo early to decide... but i kind of like it ~ ngeh....

p/s : PT sat on a chair next to me while Jess was the doctor.. he knocked the book shelf behind us and guess what happened ??? Walllaaa.. Buku2 and photo frames jatuh atas student yg tak berdosa (me la of course)... All this while jess and I duduk situ tak penah satu accident pun berlaku... Ceh....

Missing the two kids.... But I dont think I can handle them as patients....

Funny.. errr... maybe not...

Wednesday 8th Oct... Feeling a bit sick and stress... reasons ?? Coz esoknya ada honorary lecturer (HL)... basically HL ni means we in a group of 4 g GP practice for the whole day untuk teaching plus jumpa patients la.. and under one tutor for 5 weeks... go there every thursday....

Why was i sooo stressed ??? Coz of my last session yg mendukacitakan.... Don't ask me why.... So, for today's session, Dr. KT (full name will not be be published here... kot2 la dia google kan) gave us a long list of reading materials beforehand... Read everything until i got to one point when i just gave up... basically, he's still gonna ask me questions and i will never ever be able to answer it.. like what happened before... so.. sorted... couldnt care less... got to one point last time that he hates me... haha... and before tdo, dpt panic attack... tak nak pegi esok !!!!

Then this morning... walked to jenny's (30 mins away from my house) just to get a lift from here... she's the only person in the group who has a car.. and since the GP practice kat splott, menumpang la... Arrived splott at about 8.25

At about 10.00 am, the fire alarm went off... We looked at each other... KT went out and check.. Came back in and said "Guys, it's a real fire alarm... leave the building"... It's a real one ok !! bukan drill... haha... Cepat2 amik coat... coz kat luar sgt2 sejuk... not only me.. everybody kot.. lari la turun and kuar... jenny and jess siap bawak beg lagi.. lawak la imagination sume org.. diaorg kata kalo meletup nanti abis sume brg diaorg.... muahaha...

Since KT sorang je laki kot kat situ (staff wise la), so dia pun guna fire extinguisher utk padamkan.. he told us that sume org mcm gelabah tak reti guna... and mcm confuse which one nak guna since the 'fire' is caused by electricity... muahaha... 2 fire engines came.. mmg drama gle... once in a life time kot....

Dah la kesejukan.. jess sempat usha cr cute fireman... what ??? apakah ??? basically, yg terbakar is the board (electric) yg dekat reception... dont know why... hahaha... lepas 30 mins kot baru masuk blk... hehehe.... quite an experience...

Got my long case study patient today... And the session was not as bad as i expected... and now jess plak tgh rasa mcm KT tak suka dia... hahaha.... Now i have to do my write up for long case study coz dia nak tgk next week... adoi.. mmg la bagus dpt tutor strict... tp kdg2 menakutkan !..

pjg la plak tulis... hokay.. nak mandi.. baru blk dr gym.. sebab nak hlgkan stress konon...

one more week before the visit !!! muahssss

Wishes ~

Not feeling well at the moment.. Down with Flu... As much as I love my housemates, I hate it when they gave me bugs from the hospital...

Hopefully I'll get better before Monday.. Dont wanna miss my GP placement...

Anyway, thanx to Zira and Kira for the invitation to their open house.. I didnt get to eat much coz of my dizziness and nausea.. Have been feeling dizzy since afternoon, and Jen drove me to Zira's... And I'm sure it's not her driving that caused me to feel sick all day long... But, watching Austin and Anton on TV just now just made my day.... And can't wait for tonight's Strictly....

Ok.. gtg now..

Please pray for my health...

Tata... Titi.. tutu

Oh my...

Under a lot of pressure at the moment...

One of my housemates is down with flu.. hopefully its not swine flu tho.. And I'm suffering with some symptoms at the moment as well.. but not as severe.. headache and running nose...

And still stressing about my 2nd comm skills this morning... Watching urself on video is just sickening....

And thinking about my GP placement next week makes me sicker... Basically, me and jess will have to go to Penarth for 2 weeks.. We both dont have a car.. Basically train or bus are our only options.. the journey will take about an hour including the journey from my house to central station (by bus) .. not only that, the train station (dingle road) is not even that close to the GP.. about 15 mins walk...

We can take the bus instead.. but it will be longer... 1 hour ++... oh my.. u might be saying, dont think about it yet... but i have to.. need to decide and discuss with jess (my partner) about it... And the worst part is, the journey will cost us about 7.50 pounds each/day... So, do the maths people.. 60 pounds for 2 weeks... Basically duit bulan 10 ni kuar macam air... Bulan 10 la kena bayar duit tv licence, bulan 10 la jugak spark naikkan bil electricity and gas by 15 pounds for each person, bulan 10 la jugak kena bayar annual fee utk bma... and naik from 30 to 39... bulan 10 la jugak byk benda nak kena buat....

oh well.... wish life is as simple as ABC...

2 and half weeks before meeting my loved onesssss.... need a big hug !!

My weekend ! Scented candles...

Had a great weekend !! Eventho I was actually planning to have a makan2 for raya at my own place, I cancelled the plan.. sorry guys... It's because everybody was tooo tired after the 1st week of placement.. I was not feeling well myself eventho I didnt actually have a real placement.. not until 5th of october.. but still.. i have a long list of tasks that need to be done...

Spent most of the time in my room... Watched strictly on friday and saturday.... And we rushed for sushi after strictly.. We here means me, jen and lauren.. Jen was craving for sushi soo badly and wanted to go out to celebrate her 1st week of placement..

We went to the gym on saturday !! And guess what... the fee for the gym has increased from 1.20 per entry to 2.00..... Phew.... That's a lot !! And we booked a court for badminton.. So, this morning main badminton for an hour...

Oh yes... lately i'm into scented candles... Dont know why.. i think the smell makes me happy and fresh... errrrr.... dont blame me.. as long as i dont set the house on fire, than that's fine...

Ok.. need to get back to work.. Still preparing for my comm skills 2 next tuesday...

-Rindu rumah, rindu abah n mama, rindu adlina n ariff-

GP Block ~

It's the first week of placement and i'm quite lucky because my 1st block is GPMED.. Which is a combination of general practice (4 weeks) and Intergrative medicine (4 weeks)... And my 1st 2 weeks are quite easy peasy and light.. Had clinical skills (basically belajar suturing and stuff), followed by profesionalism and diversity seminar and comm skills the next day...

To my fellow friends, just wanna break the news here yg comm skills tu yg recorded nye version... eventho korang mcm dah tau kot.. muahahaha... Basically, they'll record u in action while taking a history from the 'fake' patient... And it's individually this time around.. We were the 1st group to get this done.. Not a good start tho after 3 months of summer break i.e no history taking.. The funny thing was, we were sort of like b***hing about the lady yg salu jd patient during comm skills and salu belakon dlm videos for lectures... She used to act as a patient with headache la, depression la and mcm2 lagi.. kutuk punya kutuk, i got her as my patient.. when she walked into the room i was sort of like laughing.. hadoi.. masuk video kak oi... Then dah habis, jenny was like giving me "u got her" face... waaaaa...

But, that was kind of allright.. our tutor is a GP and he's quite nice... Then today, the 24th we had our first visit to our Honorary Lecturer's practice which is in Splott... Jenny drove us there (4 of us).. The ugly part was that I had to wake up at 6 in the morning and left the house at 7.25am cause she lives in Mackintosh Place... JAUH !! Elok smpai her place, I was already sweating eventho mcm agak sejuk ke pg td.... We got lost on our way there.. Luckily Jess has a phone with a GPS... haha...

Not really happy with the session tho.. Asyik kena hentam je !!! He just lovessss to ask us questions.. and my favourite word of the day is Autonomy... Basically asyik kena hentam pasal ethical issues... hadoi2... I did read the GMC and the article that he gave us but benda2 tu mcm tak lekat dlm otak.... And blaja guna auroscopy (check ear tuh) and belaja breast examination... I didn't really know about the anatomy of the ear tho.. so kantoi for the 2nd time.. GOOD JOB husniyah !!!

Hadoi..... stress !!! And balik2 nak masak lasagna, terpotong jari sendiri time potong carrot... apakah ? and the finger is still bleeding after 3 hours.. i'm sure i dont have any clotting issues !! Oh well... it's just not a good day... But esok is my day off !! yeay !!!

p/s : Have to do my preparation lg hebat2 for next week's session so kurangkan hentaman.... But i'm quite glad that he knows my name and hafal my name already and sort of sebut it betul... finally ade gak org yg reti sebut...

p/s : Along, do u remember i told u that niyah sgt2 takut nak start placement... it's haunting me now.... I'm sure my groupmates blk rumah and bgtau housemate diaorg yg niyah sgt2 teruk... (geleng kepala) !!

Sorry la this post sgt2 panjang... i wish i can call home and talk to people at home... missing home soooo badly esp ble tgh stress and rasa nak tukaq course amik baking or smthng...

Raya ~

I don't really have the time to talk about raya here.. So, to my beloved family at home, please check my facebook for the photos.... And to my siblings, since mama n abah tak dak facebook, so tolongla tunjukkan gambar2 kepada mereka..

Basically I had a good time.. Thanx to Kak Sebah, Ili, Rus and Aiman for 'inviting' me to theirs...I'll cook for you guys ble korang blk from placement nanti eh !!!

Will update more about raya later... tada ~

p/s : The owner of this lousy blog is missing adlina and ariff soooo badly !!

-niyah-

It's back ~

STRICTLY COME DANCING is back !!!

Yeay !!

The first show was last night... And the 2nd show is tonight... I'm gonna miss tonite's show.. and the best part is, TOM will be dancing tonight !! YEAY !!

Later of the day nak pegi CCC untuk Takbir raya (If tomorrow is raya la)... Then insyaAllah g tdo umah Sebah...

Hokay.. I'm all set !! Kena study !! Selamat hari Raya Everybody.. Maaf Zahir Batin ~

Nak sangat !!

Salam wbt...

This post is dedicated to Abah, Mama, Angah and Awan kat rumah yang asyik2 call tanya gambar budak2 tu kat UK... Niyah masukkan sikit je and the rest tanya kat big brother ok ???

2 beradik tak ngantuk !

Looking for Mr. Kacang

Dah la tu.. letih la.. haha... gmbr mak cik tak de... sbb mak cik jd cameraman je... hehe....

Ok ah.. nak kuikui.. bye...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA to EVERYBODY at HOME !!! Tidak kira di ALor Janggus ataupun Dato Keramat...

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN !!

Tada ~

Penantian satu penyeksaan !!

The title is a bit dramatic.. but fair enuf, what happened today was a bit of penyeksaan... hahah...

Ok.. Based on the timetable given, we only have one lecture today, which is at 11... It's on pulmonary hypertension.. and the slides were uploaded on blackboard a couple of days ago... So, i printed it out...

Based on logic, you dont really need to go to that lecture... but, being a girl who doesnt like to miss even a single lecture, i decided to go...

Arrived at the new LT 10 mins to 11... Waited for the lecturer to come until 11 when the security guy came in and asked us to call undergrad office if the lecturer didnt turn up... Sanam came in late because she went to get some cash from the ATM.. The security asked her... "Are u the lecturer?? " hahaha.. FUNNY !!!

But then, we were told that the consultant got the wrong timetable.. he thought the lecture starts at 1... So, he rushed all the way from llandough to heath.. He got there at 11.50 !!!!! Since he made the effort to come, i stayed in the LT till the end.. Sangat2 PENAT !!! Haish..

Ok... i should stop.... Stop being such a baby !! haha... Dah tak leh penat2.. need to actually start revising properly... (Cita2)...

Ok... got to go.. Going to london tomorrow to meet the little monsters !! ngeh..

p/s : I MISS home a lot !!! Like seriously a lot !!!!!!

-niyah-

This is so GOOD !!!

Went to Katie for fish and chips... And she gave me my 22nd birthday present... which is this !!!!!

Ngeh2..... Went to Works last week and found the lewis hamilton book... at that time mcm terbayang2 buku michael schumacher... tgk2 ada org belikan... yeay !!!!!