Mama.. This is for u !!!

Went out today.. With Lizzie.. Sapa lagi kan.. Just for fun... And we did go jogging this morning as well... at Roath Park.. Jauh tu....

This is for you mama !!!!!

I got a new small handbag for mama... Because mama kata dia nak beg baru untuk kuar pi kenduri kawen etc... So, I think this is a nice bag.. And i felt in love with the bag the first time i saw it.. I hope mama will love this... And if not, I'll keep it for myself... It's from TK MAXX.. tak la mahal sgt...

Enjoy the pics.... Sebab time ni tak pakai tudung... So, lizzie jd model.. Dont ask me why she had the sunglasses on...

Keciwa...

An hour ago I was a happy bunny...

But not anymore...

Because I just realised how stupid I was....

I wasnt myself..

I should have done it better than that...

I know I can do it...

Yes... this is another placement story... I got a partner who just doesnt wanna go to the unit to do extra stuffs... And because of that, I stopped myself from going as well...

And until this second I realised that it was a stupid thing to do... Because I missed quite a lot of stuff...

Revision

Heyaaa.... I'm in the library at Llandough hospital... Doing revision...

Basically, we are supposed to be with our poisons team on Thursday afternoon... But the SHO said he's too busy because he has 3 first years with him... Which is t0tally fine.. We asked for patients with signs so that we can go and do examinations.... but he said none...

So, we decided to go to the library and do work.... And I checked my results.. The data interpretation exam result... Alhamdulillah... And that gives me a boost.. Besides great teaching from my CF consultant this morning...

During teaching, I did more respiratory examination.... He said mine is quite good... lega.... sebab last week mcm stressed out gle pasal examination...

K ah.... got to go.. Tgh revise utk exam... making some notes for pneumonia....

Haaahhhhchooooo ~

Presenting complaint - Sneezing and running nose...

That's me... Got upper respiratory tract infection (URTI) sine last Thursday.. And apparently people said that you will definitely catch one when you are doing respiratory rotation.. And I've got my dose already..

So skang ni asyik blocked nose or bersin je.. and I know I shouldnt be going to CF unit ble tak sihat because they are immunocompromised patients.. Luckily didnt have any symptoms when I'm at CF unit... Cool huh ?? and time teaching la asyik nak bersin je....

I think I have rhinitis... Sbb salu bersin awal pagi and mlm... And I should tell that to my GP sbb its related to Asthma... Oh well.....

Dah start ngarut... Exam is coming really soon... we have about a month and a bit to revise... And I'm freaking out already....

Ok.. have to go now... Cause tomorrow morning I have a consultant teaching.... And I'm planning to present a history that I took yesterday to him... And I have to revise respiratory examination again before doing it tomorrow.... And the list continues.....

p/s : Hopefully it wont rain at 4 because I really2 wanna go jogging today... Bute park here i come !!!!

Broken Stringssss

It's James Morrison's song.. And it's my favourite song at the moment....

And as usual... Jen will come and sit in my room for ours and we just had random conversation... She asked me to play some music... As usual.... Because we usually have music on while having conversation...

Since we are already sick of GLEE songs... not we... Me.... So, I decided to put another playlist on... And Jen being Jen.. She'll say SKIP to the songs that she doesnt like...

And after skipping a few songs, I just said to her...

H : My laptop is stuck.. Can't skip anymore... (Was lying actually)

And guess which song came out... It's Broken Strings by James Morrison.. Jen doesnt particularly likes this song... So, she started laughing and threw all my pillows and soft toys to me.. I was like.. It's stuck !!! Haha....

But then... Didnt want to see her dying slowly so I changed the song..

Anyways... Jen did her respiratory in Llandough last year.. And since she's at the bottom of the list as well, so, she got the CF team... And we just couldnt stop talking about our team...

Who wants to miss placement when you got a "kacak, muda (34) dan bergaya" consultant... Purposely did that in Malay.. in case ade yg terbaca... Motivation untuk g placement !!!!

Ok.. need to get back to my respiratory revision as there's somebody that I need to impress... Muahahaha.. (Gelak evil)...

Gatai la...

Respiratory Medicine ~

Yes.. I'm currently doing my Resp Medicine in Llandough Hosp (UHL).... And it has the longest corridor in Europe.. Somebody told me that it's 460m... So, if I walk up and down the corridor sehari leh wat more than 1km ni... haha... Plus, in UHL, the carpark for students is down at the gravel... Very the far man !!! About 5-10 minutes walk to the Academic Building.. Since the hosp is soooo OLD, the academic building or the common room is in a different building.. So, extra 5 minutes walk to get to the hosp.... So, do your maths.. Agaknye banyak mane calories yg leh dibakar di UHL ?? haha... So, I dont have to jogging or gym anymore... haha... Plus weather is not helping either... everyday hujan... tak leh g jogging.. and kena berjalan dlm hujan g main hosp building....

And today, we got the snow !! AGAIN !!! Walked in the snow to the main hosp building... Then, went to CF unit... Sempat sesat dulu.. Met my consultant... (Lucky me.. Dpt consultant yg diidamkan).. But then, he asked me where my friends are... He thought there will be 3 students under CF team.. But this time around ade 2 je... And unlucky me, dpt partner yg tak nak dtg or kdg2 tu "ill".... Not the first time I have this problem.. Dah penat kot... Dulu time ROSS kat Bridgend pun kena partner mcm ni.. Salu kena soal ngan consultant... And kdg2 tu nak nangis.. Because I wanted to learn, but since partner tak dtg, consultant tak de mood nak ajar.... Kdg2 tu diaorg keen nak ajar... And ble sorang2 time placement, ble kena tanya soklan, tak de support system kalo tak tau.... As example today, my consultant just did a short teaching.... Maybe because sorang je kot students.. Sedih ok !!!! Did respiratory examination.. But he did say I'm quite good considering it's my first time..

And since snow agak lebat, I asked for a permission to leave early... I got a lift from Sanam in the morning.. but then she left at about 11.30 due to snow.. and she left be behind... And adrian said he's leaving as well... And time tu rasa desprate plak.. cause kalo sume org balik, mcm mane nak blk ptg kang... and fair enuf.. ade je CARDIFF BUS... So, bleeped my team... and they said I can go.. And they even said if i have prob to get home, tell them and they'll sort something out.. hahaha..

So, here I am.. Revising on cardiology and respiratory.. because i just have this feeling that I wanna do WELL all of sudden..Like really2 WELL... So, nak belajar la...

So not motivated !!

I am a kind of person who usually gets really excited and keen about clinical placement..

But not anymore... Especially not today... I dont know why.... This morning I couldnt find my watch... And then, got my timetable at UHW.. Since kena wat respiratory dulu, so I will be based in UHL (Lllandough) for 4 weeks before UHW(Cardiff) for 4 weeks of Cardiology...

And got my resp timetable.. as usual... diaorg suka wat ikut surname... So, i got the last team... AGAIN !! not fun ok !! Group lain 4 students.. my group.. tak de group.... 2 students.. and guess what.. i got the CF (cystic fibrosis) team... Haish.. Malas nak merengek byk pasal CF team.. basicaaly jen said u wont learn much sebab dia pun dpt CF team last week... And half of the time in the timetable I will be with the general medicine team.. APAKAH ??? Stress kot.. sah2 dah wat General MED kat Merthyr....

And uni tak bg transport utk ke Lllandough.. BECAUSE THEY ASSUME EVERYBIDY HAS A CAR... Kalo amik bus kena tukar kat town... So, sejam la jugak... And Lauren said since dia tak lalu my house utk g Llandough, so tak leh la tumpang dia.. Sebab dia kena detour nak amik... And rumah dia jauh la jugak kalo nak jln.. 40 mins...

So, dengan muka tak malu, gi la tanya org lain leh tumpang ke tak.. Basically hari mmg tebalkan muka la.. Tanya org sana sini.. Org yg tak kena sgt pun terpaksa la tanya sbb nak tumpang nye pasal.. And dlm kete, terus tpk.. Tak nak balik SUMMER la.. Nak simpan duit.. and then nak keje... and beli kete... sbb dah bosan kena merayu kat org... And tonight ade meeting oncology kat my tutor's house.. and had to beg somebody for a lift as well sbb tak de public transport g umah tutor tu... hish !!!!!!!!!

But then... I think deep inside i'm just beine emotional.. maybe hormones kot.. or maybe just the workload... or maybe mmg tgh stress... But jen said... "It's the Cardiff and Vale placement"... Because mmg sume org tak suka placement under cardiff and vale NHS trust....

Hopefully I will feel better tomorrow.. and more motivated... I dunno...