Beaumaris Castle...

Gambar di atas ni gmbr Beaumaris Castle.... Amik time kat Bangor dulu.. Sebab tuka template is because blog ni dah tua and tak penah tukar ape2... hehe... sedar tak sedar... blog di dah almost 3 thn ??? hurm.. achievement !!!

Ok.. gtg.. nak study addictions.. finally esok dpt gak g clinic addiction... hurm...


p/s : I think we all have some degree of adult ADHD... Well, if u don't I know I do... :)

Looking forward ~~ :)

I am now motivated to finish up my work and work really hard for my winter break !!!!

Need to make sure that I finish all my psych notes in 2 weeks time.. And up to date with my child health notes... And get ready for OSCE in Feb for Psych and Obs and Gynae !!

Ya Allah berkatilah usaha ku.. hopefully I won't regret this desicion.. but I know it's the best...

This will be a motivation for me !! Yeay !!!!

It's because people are saying in 4th year, you need to work constantly... and finish up your notes on time... But, to be fair, ade ke org local yg blk Christmas study kat rumah ?? So, the same goes to me... What I need to do is make sure I'm up to date by Dec.. InsyaAllah I'll be fine...


So... MALAYSIA, here I come !!!!

p/s : I can feel happy tears running down my cheeks... Thank you Abah and Mama...

Makin lama dok UK... makin mengada.. makin homesick...

xxx

Anger

Warning... Ini adalah luahan perasan !

Lately ni asyik rasa nak marah je !!!! And mmg kalo geram tu, pasal hal placement... Mmg berjela2 la kalo nak cte... sempay fly blk msia, and patah blk... serius....

And as stated before, I am currently in my psych rotation... 3 weeks down and 2 weeks to go.. at 1st, I was really nervous, but then it totally changed.. Everybody was really nice... And mula2 tu geram sbb dpt placement yg merata dunia... Schedulu is like morning dekat CRI for Clinic.. Tu kena naik bas la... and then ptg dekat hospital lain for ward rounds... and this consultant of mine merata wards dia... Llandough.. whitchurch.... since I dont have a car, half of my days war wasted on buses or waiting for buses.. so, sometimes tak dpt lunch break.. And if its raining, I will be wet by the time smpai hosp... Mmg meletihkan... But 1st week tu mcm ok lg la.. sbb baru start...

But then, came week 3, I am easily annoyed and irritated.. imagine waking up early just to catch the bus, and tgk2 bus tak dtg.. tunggu bas smpai 30 min, bus tak smpai2.. smpai la lambat for clinics or ward rounds... and kalo bas lambat tu, rasa mcm nak marah je.. naik bus je terus muka merah !!! rasa nak nangis.. and geram sgt2 !!!!! Every single day i started my day with anger.. which is not good...

and then... Dah week 3, I am still terkontang-kanting for history and mental state examination... Request nak amik history tak dilayan.. patients not suitable and mcm2 lg... then, dpt la amik history form this patient kat ICU.... Terus motivation went down sbb patient tu teruk gle.. and i failed to get any information from her... So, i asked my consultant for more cases... and one extra case for my Long Case Assessment... and he said, he wants my long case to be written.. WHAT ??? setgh consultant nak case dia presented je... ni nak kena written...

And the worst thing is, my consultant suro guna history patient yg ICU tu as my long case.. I said to him, I dont have enough info.. dia kata... pegi la jumpa patient tu lg !!! and the problem is that nobody knows what's wrong with her.. seriously... So, how am I supposed to know ? I'm just a student !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish he would give me a more straight fwd case for my long case.....

And prob in the house... not helping... and homesickness.. not helping...... But somehow, air mata tak nak keluar... Salunya kalo nangis, terus rasa lega.. and apparently, that's how it is supposed to work.. my consultant said so... kena nangis baru lega... haha... tu advice dia kat patients... but then... disebabkan terlalu marah and geram, nak nangis pun tak leh.... hurm.. as if i'm on antidepressents ke ape... note that kalo amik antidepressent, air mata tak kuar... fuyooooooo


Ok2.... My aim is to be positive next 2 weeks... because dah nak abis psych.. tak nak ah placement ni jd sia2.. so, this weekend, I'll work really hard to finish up my notes and hopefully leh happy sket....

Ya Allah, please help me !

On the bright site, i have been blessed by lots of friends.... since I will be going to Rhyl for my next block, I have been offered lifts to Rhyl by a few people.. note here, i didnt ask for it... Org dtg offer !!! Fuyoo... I guess it's not that bad not having a car.. skang nak kena decide nak naik kete sapa !!! haha..

ok... need to get ready.. nak pi gym... satg jadi nala punya besaq plak kalo tak pi..

p/s : Homework for the day... decide nak blk ke tak winter ??

1st

My 1st smartphone.... Hope that I won't regret it... :)

Kecewa...

As people at home knows... I'm a TV addict.. Dok di perantauan ni, hanya internet je la pengubat rindu... leh tgk rncgn2 melayu and us kat online.... I will be the first one to know links to some series.... and website mana yg ada rancangan melayu...

And fav has always been tv3 nye website la.. cause semua bnda leh tgk kat situ... akasia.. samarinda... lestary... blk2 placement je terus bukak laptop.. and kalo mkn je mestu tgk cte online.....

HOWEVER.... skang ni agak sedih ngan geram.. since tv3 dah tukar guna tonton.com utk catch up prog, the quality has gone down.,.. sgt2... bygkan, gmbr tak clear.... and salu sangkut2.... and slow gle nak load page.... and people might be saying its your internet yg prob and ect.... TP, ni internet kat uk.. yg berjuta kali lg laju kat msia.. kalo internt kat uk pun prob, mcm mana org kat msia nak tgk..

Before this guna tv3.com.my laju gle kot... best je... and ble tgk org lain comment kata tak leh tgk sume, I had no prob at all.. Thanx to Virgin media ?? haha... But now, sgt2 sedih... blk2 placement penat2 nak tgk tv, tak leh.... tgh mlm tak leh.. bgn awal pg tak leh... APAKAH ?? Takan nak kena tgk cte mat salleh je ?? let me know !!!!

K ah.. dah lmbt.. nak kena mandi g placement... Another long day !!!! Clinic at CRI then naik bus ke whitchurch plak utk ward round !!

Yeay !!

Lately malas sgt nak update blog.. nak letak gambar byk2 pun malas... sbb rasa mcm payah plak.. nak drag2 gmbr.. then i figured something out... that actually sblm ni guna firefox... skang guna explorer... rupanya guna explorer payah sikit nak cut and paste like i used to.. dont ask me why.. maybe buta IT kot... So, installed firefox and found out that it's back to normality.. so, will continue updating this blog... just for fun... :p

Errrrr

Tried to clear my wardrobe and sent some to charity shop already... and still... can't find enough space for my clothes... keep on buying tops and blouses and trousers.. ALASAN ! sbb tak cukup utk placement.. haha.. ye la tu.. smpai tak muat almari..

Kelas Memasak..

NOT.... just been enjoying cooking lately to destress myself...

Presenting !!

Homemade meatballs !!! from scratch !! :)

Malas

Currently been diagnosed with this disease... malas gle nak update blog.. and rasa mcm makin leceh je blogspot ni... dulu straight fwd je.. ni skang mcm susah je nak letak gmbr sume... hurm...

Eid..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

Solat raya dekat CCC, makan2 anjuran Cardiff Keluarga (Postgrad) kat CCC and back to reality after that.. :)

The few undergrads.. among the postgrads....

Went to the OSCE tutorial kat UHW after the girls' open house... So, amik gambar ngan Rukhsana sbb dia pun raya..

Open house Kabi and Hafiz.. Note baju raya 2 tahun lepas.. haha..

Year 4 2010/2011

Alhamdulillah.. I'm now back in Cardiff.. 4th year already...

Just came back from a never ending psych lectures.. Yes, u heard it right.. Psych is my 1st block.. Very challenging... Haven't started placements yet.. Next Monday baru start.. ni baru intro lectures to psych... 4th year ade 5 blocks.. and lectures bahagi ikut blog.. so, dah tak sama ngan kwn2 la... krenye buat kawan baru... and lectures in smaller groups... memandangkan ade 72 swansea students yg baru joined the group and 60+ interclated, so byk jugak la org yg tak dikenali.. terpaksa la berkenalan balik and buat kwn baru..

On Wednesday, I got the timetable for my psych placement cause dpt Cardiff and Vale nye trust.. so, diaorg bg timetable time lecture la.. kalo trust lain mmg tak dpt lagi timetable.. unlucky me, I have no partner for my placement.. Keseorangan... Sebab diaorg salu susun ikut surnames kan.. so, salu jd org terakhir dlm list as I am Miss Zainol Abidin...

Kata je based kat CAV... ingatkan Heath or Llandough je.... Tp, dpt sorang2 kat Links Centre, Cardiff Royal Infirmary... Terkial2 la Monday ni cari tempat tu... and sepjg lima minggu kena travel satu Cardiff sbb sume Mental Health Institution and Hospitals mcm sekitar Cardiff.. So, tawaf la Cardiff naik bus.. ade hari kena g Whitchurch.. ade hari kena g Llandough.... Hurm... siap lecturer bgtau, ada yg lucky leh g prison !!!!!!!!

Kind of excited but nervous jugak.. sbb psych is totally different.. mcm nak amik history pun lain sgt2... but i'm loving the lectures sbb rasanya psych nye department sgt2 baik, best and bersemangat... Hurm.. and after lectures td, we said goodbye to each other.. sbb ade yg akan ke north wales.. basically we'll see each other again in 5 weeks time.. and I wont be seeing anybody other than my housemated for the next 5 weeks jugak cause placement sorang2 !!!! NIGHTMARE !

So far, puasa alhamdulillah.. but missing home LOTSSSSS.... Kurma mama bg pun tak bukak makan sbb homesick.. pegi beli kurma lain lagi.. hahaha...

Ok.. nak tdo !