Please don't cry !!!! You are not allowed to go through another breakdown...

Stress..

Exam is in 4 days time.. Quite a lot of people are asking how am I feeling etc... And to be honest, I keep on saying that I'm feeling fine... Alhamdulillah....

But, I was lying... Because my body didn't say so... My body has its own reactions to develop with stress... Maybe mulut ckp tak stress, but my brain knows.. Dan ditunjukkan melalui beberapa signs/symptoms...

1) Mouth ulcer... Dah lama tak kena.. Tbe2 dpt yg besar skali.. Amik ko... Mkn byk je buah.. Minum byk je air.... Tapi, tak hilang2 gak.. And kalo check kat cermin.. BESAR wei....

2 ) Dandruff... Mmg akan kuar mcm snow ble stress... Shampoo sakan pun, byk gak..

3 ) Gastric reflux.... Ie acid reflux from the stomach.. Yg ni memang horror... Mmg sejak dpt uk salu dpt reflux.. dont ask me why.. But salunye minum susu suam, jd ok.. But not this time around.. Smpai dekat 2 jam berguling atas katil.. It's central chest pain that radiates to the back.. Was thinking about dissection of aorta ke ape.. But, tak de la.. lepas 2 jam hilang... and other symptoms correlates with reflux....

4) Eating - Sume bnda nak mkn.. Tak penah kenyang..

5) Non stop talking smpai lupa nak bernafas... My fren said this... She realised that I was having a panic attack when I just couldnt stop talking.. laju lak tu...

And sume org tanya, ape perasaan nak kena g Bangor 9 minggu ?? Ntah ah.. tak de perasaan lagi skang.. Maybe akan menangis on the Sunday before nak pegi tu ??

Ok la. need to get backt to Thyroid revision...

PLEASE PRAY FOR ME...

Nasib sebuah beg...

First of all, sebuah ke ??? Bahasa pun dah tak betul..

Anyway, I bought this bag bulan Sept... Time first2 stat placement.. Usung ke GP, and then MED kat Merthyr.. Sampai la skang...

And today, last day of placement, I decided to throw it away.. Tgk la apa dah jadi ngan beg tu... Sebab beg sentiasa berat... Isi mcm2... Tp, 3 blocks pakai.. ok la tu....



Nanti SSC bawak beg plastik jela eh... Or, buy a new bag ????

Anyway, ni kuar dr topic... Tgh tgk ER... Then, baru perasan, dalam mata Elizabeth Corday ada pigmentation jugak... Sama mcm my right eyes... Adakah ini bermaksud saya akan menjadi surgeon jugak ???

:)

Finally....

Cepat kan masa berlalu ?? Sedar tak sedar.. Yesterday we had our last lecture in Year 3... Lepas exam, terus g UHW utk lecture.... Gigih betul med school saya ni... suka benor la menyusahkan student.. dari Student Union lepas exam, terus g Hospital... Takpe la.. Berkorban..

And esok last day placement... Dah abis Cardio... Cepat gle...Waktu bulan 9 dulu ingat mmg tak akan abis placement ni.. History and kejar consultant mintak signature... Then, smpai penah nangis2 sebab dpt consultant yg mcm tak nak sign.. mcm2 drama la...

Today, we had a discussion with this one consultant about some specialty yg didominasi oleh the testosterone population.. IE byk laki la... Contohnye Cardiology, Orthopaedics... Baru sedar yg tak de sorang pun Consultant pompuan Cardio kat Heath.... But, byk plak org in my year yg nak jd Cardiologist.. Pompuan la... Tp, dlm group placement ktorg mmg tak byk laki pun... ade 4 laki je out of 24... heh...

Waktu jln balik tu asyik dok pk, specialty ape je yg banyak pompuan ?? And I got the answer !! GP !!!!! Agak logik la... sebab GP nye time lagi flexible kan....

Ok la.. need to get back to work.. Still trying to revise Health in Society !!!!!!

Glucoih....

Our brain needs glucose... The organ that requires only glucose as the source of energy.. (That's the only thing that I learned in med school).. hehe...

So, memandangkan study utk exam, jadi demand for glucose pun bertambah.. selama ni otak tak bekerja.. and tbe2 kena bekerja keras... terus la kena makan banyak...

Jadi, anak dara ni pun masak sakan la.. tiap2 kali exam, mesti masak mcm2.... So, I made rice krispies 'cake' yesterday... sebab mini eggs murah lak... Plus, benda paling senang nak buat... And leh bawak g library... And teman2 yg selalu ke library skali dpt la mknan free...




And today, i made nasik lemak.... Utk bfast, lunch kat library and dinner....

Dlm bekas dah.. bekal utk lunch

Bahagia - makan nasik lemak sambil tgk F1... Malangnya Michael Schumacher dah tekuar... ceh... penat ja bgn awal....

Now, tak leh decide nak g library skang ke atau tunggu f1 abis... heh.... Because tgk F1 ni bg homesick je... hurm...

p/s : Mama jgn risau niyah gemuk... Skang ni hari2 jln g library... and time placement turun naik tangga 5 tingkat.. So, tak gemuk kot... Kalo gemuk time exam ni, lepas exam niyah pi jogging hari2... :P

Argh !!!!

Skang ni kat library.... Dah nak bengong kepala otak.. stress !! Ni tgh break la konon.. so dtg la comp room... nak nangis... kenapa perlu ade exam !!!

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Sejuk....

It's 1st of April.... And last 2 weeks the whether has been amazing.. Tup2, bertukar terus...Hujan lebat and kesejukan... And semlm snow sebentar....

Ni spring ke winter ?? Sejuk gle kot.. Elok dah pack heater masuk kotak last week sebab rasa mcm semak and dah tak perlu, tgk2 sejuk balik..... Plus, last week jugak la ktorg tukar timer heater... Dah ah baru dpt bill from Swalec... Terbang 100pounds utk gas and electricity winter time... Waaaa... so, skang berkesejukan lah kami....

Hurm.. Banyak benda nak cte.. I've got signed off.. Heee.... Lagi seminggu patutnye Cardio, but we were cheeky... Sbb Dr. W (one of my consultant) kata he's not gonna be in next week, so, ktorg suro dia sign.. Padahal ade lagi 2 consultants lain... And today presented another history, so, dah cukup 4... ngeh2.. Bahagia... Kalo ikutkan, mmg tak yah g la.. Tapi, byk org said to me "You are still gonna come in right ? U are too nice not to come in.."... I'm taking that as a +ve thing..... Saya baik.. hehehe....

And baru je submit SSC choices tadi... I have >50% chances utk end up dekat Bangor... Sbb most of the choices yg tak payah transport is in Bangor... But, think about it again, banyak org akan end up kat sana.. After all, it's not gonna be that bad.. I might cry 1st sebab nak kena g 9 minggu kot.. or maybe less... But, we can go sightseeing on the weekends.. so, tak pe la...

Emotionally, sume org tgh emo... Ari ni sume ckp pasal emo masing2 before teaching... Dah ah 7 org ja dtg.. out of 24... So, ade sorang laki je.. Kesian dia kena layan kerenah pompuan2 yang emo.... And dia mesti akan tanya, is it the time of the month ?? Ces.... Susah ckp ngan budak medic ni.. tak de explanation lain...

Ok la... nak solat Asar... SEJUK... nak g amik wuduk un takut... heh...
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