Thinking....

I just got crushed into pieces ~

Keserabutan ~

Everybody was asking... Are you excited that your family is coming ??

My answer : Of course la yes... but at the same time SERABUT !!

Why ???
Byk sgt tanggungjawab... Byk sgt kerja nak disiapkan.... Tak sempat nak pk.. Tak sempat nak excited... Like seriously !!!

1) First draft for long case study.... Esok nak kena submit... Dah la takut KT, lg la stress.... Then nak kena prepare for OSCA next Thursday plak... Kalo bukan sebab KT yg strict, mmg tak cuak la.. ni dpt tutor yg ingat dia best... ARGH !!
2) Oncology project.. Bethany text semlm said that the meeting will be on Monday after placement... Basically after 6pm at Valindre... And my placement kat Merthyr... When I got the text, separuh menjerit separuh menangis... Told her that might not be able to make it... Oh well, if we still cant change the date, I guess I still HAVE to do it !!!
3) Personal tutor meeting.. punya la kelam kabut kehidupan sekarang, sampai terlupa nak check e-mail and missed my 1st meeting with my personal tutor... waaaaa.... It was supposed to be today since she's only availabe on Wed sbb hari lain dia kat Newport... Arranged another day with her and hopefully she wont mind....
4) Byk gle baju nak kena basuh.... and since my housemate bagi pinjam bilik diaorg for my familia, have to wash all my beddings cause diaorg nak bawak blk brg2 diaorg and basuh kat rumah... and i havent washed mine yet for this weekend... And baju-bajuan di dalam bakul...
5) Food shopping tak buat lg... so, kepada org2 di rumah yang rasa nak dtg UK and makan sedap, sorry la... I'll try to do it on Saturday...

And the list continues... I am loving my GP placement.. Can't believe Friday ni last day kat Penarth.. and Merthyr plak... Can't imagine my life after this... I timed myself last week... and basically I took about 1 hour to solat subuh, shower, breakfast and bersiap untuk ke placement... and since utk g Merthyr bus kul 7.15, I will have to leave the house the latest at 6.50 am... Therefore kena bangun kul 5.50 am... Kalo untuk g GP kena kuar umah kul 7.30... so bgn kul 6.30.... Tu pun rumah dah mcm tongkang pecah.... Lepas ni mmg bilik plak mcm tongkang pecah....

Ok2... need to stop membebeling... I'll try to be excited after this.. Just that too many things are going on and my brain is not coping really well...

Wish me luck for honorary lecturer esok... (Berdebar2)...

p/s : My long case study 1st draft is the worst first draft that I have ever produced... Owh well... buat lek lok pun confem kena kutuk.. so, buat je la teruk2... hehe...

Paediatrics

Hallooooo ~

Finally it's Friday... Such a lonnnnngggg day... Guess what ?? My GP tutor kept us till 5.30 pm today... we took the 5.45 bus from penarth back to Cardiff and sampai rumah at 6.40...waaaaa.. what a day !!!!

But, that's not the main point of this post.... All this while I keep on thinking that I dont want to be a paediatrician... (sorry kalo salah spelling... tgh kalut)... Anyway... I always have this feeling that I wont be able to handle kids and they will not like me... but guess what ???? I like it now !!! I mean I do like kids before... I can be a cikgu tadika if I want...but not sick/ill kids... Itu semua sejarah.. hehe.. (perasan)....

Got my long case study patient yesterday (Acted as a doctor for 5 mins)... she is a 7 yr old girl with mouth ulcer... and KT said I was very good at taking her history... Basically the girl talked to me and felt very comfortable.. kembang semangkuk... ngeh2... And the patient's little sister tu asyik nangis ble tgk one of my colleagues... ngeh2.. but not me !! Yipee...

And today in GP practice, got 3 kids sekaligus with the daddy la of course... And PL asked me to be the doctor plak... since Jess got the earlier patient.. when he told me that patients (bear in mind more than one) are kids, I covered my face with my book.... I was like.. NOT AGAIN !!! I didnt have any choice did i ?? Luckily, it went well... And they asked me to consider paeds now.... It's still tooo early to decide... but i kind of like it ~ ngeh....

p/s : PT sat on a chair next to me while Jess was the doctor.. he knocked the book shelf behind us and guess what happened ??? Walllaaa.. Buku2 and photo frames jatuh atas student yg tak berdosa (me la of course)... All this while jess and I duduk situ tak penah satu accident pun berlaku... Ceh....

Missing the two kids.... But I dont think I can handle them as patients....

Funny.. errr... maybe not...

Wednesday 8th Oct... Feeling a bit sick and stress... reasons ?? Coz esoknya ada honorary lecturer (HL)... basically HL ni means we in a group of 4 g GP practice for the whole day untuk teaching plus jumpa patients la.. and under one tutor for 5 weeks... go there every thursday....

Why was i sooo stressed ??? Coz of my last session yg mendukacitakan.... Don't ask me why.... So, for today's session, Dr. KT (full name will not be be published here... kot2 la dia google kan) gave us a long list of reading materials beforehand... Read everything until i got to one point when i just gave up... basically, he's still gonna ask me questions and i will never ever be able to answer it.. like what happened before... so.. sorted... couldnt care less... got to one point last time that he hates me... haha... and before tdo, dpt panic attack... tak nak pegi esok !!!!

Then this morning... walked to jenny's (30 mins away from my house) just to get a lift from here... she's the only person in the group who has a car.. and since the GP practice kat splott, menumpang la... Arrived splott at about 8.25

At about 10.00 am, the fire alarm went off... We looked at each other... KT went out and check.. Came back in and said "Guys, it's a real fire alarm... leave the building"... It's a real one ok !! bukan drill... haha... Cepat2 amik coat... coz kat luar sgt2 sejuk... not only me.. everybody kot.. lari la turun and kuar... jenny and jess siap bawak beg lagi.. lawak la imagination sume org.. diaorg kata kalo meletup nanti abis sume brg diaorg.... muahaha...

Since KT sorang je laki kot kat situ (staff wise la), so dia pun guna fire extinguisher utk padamkan.. he told us that sume org mcm gelabah tak reti guna... and mcm confuse which one nak guna since the 'fire' is caused by electricity... muahaha... 2 fire engines came.. mmg drama gle... once in a life time kot....

Dah la kesejukan.. jess sempat usha cr cute fireman... what ??? apakah ??? basically, yg terbakar is the board (electric) yg dekat reception... dont know why... hahaha... lepas 30 mins kot baru masuk blk... hehehe.... quite an experience...

Got my long case study patient today... And the session was not as bad as i expected... and now jess plak tgh rasa mcm KT tak suka dia... hahaha.... Now i have to do my write up for long case study coz dia nak tgk next week... adoi.. mmg la bagus dpt tutor strict... tp kdg2 menakutkan !..

pjg la plak tulis... hokay.. nak mandi.. baru blk dr gym.. sebab nak hlgkan stress konon...

one more week before the visit !!! muahssss

Wishes ~

Not feeling well at the moment.. Down with Flu... As much as I love my housemates, I hate it when they gave me bugs from the hospital...

Hopefully I'll get better before Monday.. Dont wanna miss my GP placement...

Anyway, thanx to Zira and Kira for the invitation to their open house.. I didnt get to eat much coz of my dizziness and nausea.. Have been feeling dizzy since afternoon, and Jen drove me to Zira's... And I'm sure it's not her driving that caused me to feel sick all day long... But, watching Austin and Anton on TV just now just made my day.... And can't wait for tonight's Strictly....

Ok.. gtg now..

Please pray for my health...

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